A Month Already?
These kids are growing so quickly and need so much of me that I barely have any time to knit. I even barely have any time to clean!
I melt anytime I see him go up to her and give her impulsive kisses on the nose. Not one speck of jealousy in this wonderful little boy.
VE is awake so much more now than she was in her first month, that is the main reason why I have hardly any time for projects. But, huge praise here, she has slept through the night 5 nights in a row!!!
I'm a happy and more well rested Mama. Which, by the way, I'm thinking of changing to Mum. I adore the sound of it. But that means I'll need to get everyone else on board and I just don't foresee that happening.
~ Disclaimer! ~ Don't get me wrong, by saying I'm a happy Mama I'm not implying there aren't hard days. There are certainly days where I want to bury my head in a pillow and cry, get frustrated for cleaning up the same "off limit" item a dozen times, raise my voice higher than I mean to, and just want to (how did I word in in that email to Hubby?) eat enough "chocolate, chai, any thing to make me happily comatose for a short period of time." The thing is...for every moment where I see a brick wall and think, "ooh, how wonderful would it be to walk up and face plant into that?" there are DOZENS more moments where I think I have the best calling in the world. A little boy who pulls me into a room to show me something he's discovered, runs to me when something has scared or hurt him, gives me impulse hugs and kisses, answers my 'do you' questions with "yeah!" A little girl who lights up with the most beautiful smile after she wakes up and sees me, has cooing conversations with me, is beginning to look like me, and wants nothing more than to be in my arms all day long for non-stop hugs. Seriously, how can I complain about anything when I am overwhelmingly blessed? My children love me and need me. Way too often I become selfish and want to put myself first. I will only have these children in my care for a short time. Me, myself, and I can wait.
When I find those few child free moments (and I'm not cleaning/doing laundry/doing some organization project so we can see our desks or kitchen table) I'm working on one of two knitting projects:
Passenger in the car (if it's warm enough to not need gloves) - Handspun Hap Blanket
In church (if I'm not holding a little girl) - Handspun Hap Blanket (knitting in church helps me focus. Yeah, I'm weird.)
At home - winter scarf. Can you believe this knitter doesn't have a good winter scarf?!?
The scarf is really the Princess Franklin Plaid Collar - in completely different colors, not in-the-round, narrower, and I'm calling it Princess Celeste instead. I have redesigned the plaid to feature only three colors instead of 5. The redesign alone took 2 days worth of naps and then some. Merg. I got about two dozen rows in only to need to rip it back out because of a too-loose cast on edge. A dropped stitch confirmed the need to rip instead of crossing my fingers that blocking might cure the crumpled edge disease. It's all for the best though as I am now weaving in all ends as I knit. Think I just discovered a long lost love that I never knew existed but now can't live without! Necessity really is the mother of invention.
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