I get lost inside my head

Tweet Is it true that you always kill the ones you love, but why? Shouldn’t love be simple -- effortless? But it isn’t. It never has been. I read too many books, or maybe I don’t read enough. Have you ever been in love? How do you know? How can you be so sure, to then lose it in the early afternoon -- slipping beneath the floorboards?My biggest fear isn’t losing you but that one day you’ll find that you’ve forgotten me. I know that you’ll never marry me because I’ll never marry anyone. Does that mean we’re not in love? But I don’t want this to be nothing. I don’t want to wake up one morning, after the storm we’ve created, to forget it all.Can that happen?Will it happen?I want to be under your skin for years. I want you to catch your breath whenever someone says my name. I want you to reach out for me in the dark of night. Remember every detail of our existence. I need this from you because I cannot mourn alone. You cannot burden me with your memories.I wish you could see me for me. Devour my madness and comfort my sadness. But I could never allow it. What if I were to let you touch my soul? Even for a moment? Then what? This could never last. It can never be forever because in the end, you always kill the ones you love.I read this book, listened to this song, and cried. This post was inspired by all three.with love.badley