Lost, But Not Found

ALEXANDER WANG JACKET, SANDRO SHIRT, RICH & SKINNY JEANS, CHRISTIAN DIOR SHOES, TOM FORD SUNGLASSES, MICHAEL KORS WATCH, HERMES AND CC SKYE BRACELETS
Recently I've been downright lazy and unmotivated. It's easy to be mindless when you don't care about something. What matters is what you think about when you do. That said, I wish my mind would just walk down my veins and pinpoint precisely what my heart desires already, like an "X" marks the spot on a map.

This is the order I function in nowadays: I feel high, I feel low, and then I feel nothing at all. I never seem to find a middle ground. I've lost every sense and recognition of balance and stability. Sometimes I ask, what's wrong with me? And other times, I'm perfectly fine with not knowing. I'm lost, but I have no desire to be found. For now, anyway.