for everyone who wasn't saved.

ever since i read green eggs and ham all by myself as a child, i've been enthralled with reading. i would read anything i could get my hands on. horror, cheesy romantics, kid books, short stories, crime novels, literally anything. i don't know what my fascination with the written word was when i was a child or even a teenager, but now i read to fall into the world in which the book is surrounded.

when i read, i can see the characters, i picture their outfits, their faces, how they talk. i feel their pain and their happiness. it's ridiculous how much i relate to the books i read. sometimes i think i read so much because where i'm at in my life right now, anyone's life seems better. then yesterday as i was opening my kindle and a new book had popped up in my collection. i don't remember purchasing this book but figured i'd read it anyway.

the book was called the coincidence of callie and kayden.
the first thing that caught my attention was who the book was dedicated too.
for everyone who wasn't saved.
this of course made me want to know what the author, jessica sorensen, meant. as i read on, i couldn't stop reading it. i could relate in so many different ways with each of the characters. feeling alone, not being able to trust someone from a tramautic event that's happened in your life. knowing you'd rather feel physical pain than feel anything humanly normal. making yourself appear to be someone else to hide from yourself.

anyway, my point to this post is that the relationship callie and kayden had wasn't perfect, it wasn't the romantic novel that everyone loves to read. it was a challenge but they kept pushing forward. i hope one day that i can find someone who will push forward with me and not give up on me or only see the outside of me. maybe one day i'll be able to open up in the way i've recently wanted to do. but if it never happens, i'll be ok.

have a good one my loves.