Expect the unexpected

I spend almost the whole week away in the middle of nowhere in the south of Sweden by the Baltic sea, with some amazing women that I got to know trough this organisation that I am in. Meeting after meeting... Im still exhausted, but I sure did learn a lot.. And I also got some distance from everything that is happening in my life... Its nice to scape for a while... But its hits you hard when you get back... Its so hard to explain, but I feel like these couple of weeks have gone so slowly and so fast at the same time... I can hardly keep track of the days, because it mostly feels like it all happened yesterday, but centuries ago... Everything seems to be prolongated. Every tough and every question is stuck in a vicousity of mixed emotions, blindness and disorientation ... I'm trying to get back on track with my work, but its not going easily... Its not going well at all... I feel this pressure and an amazing desire to be done... My expectations are too high and the only thing I want is put all my money together and grab a flight quickly out here... I wanna wear this suit to the beach, with no heels, not jacket or armer to protect me from the cold and I want to feel the burning sand, the salty air and the salty water... I would love to have a week or two just for my self... I keep thinking about the movie Tracks and I wonder if taking off and being away from it all is the solution...

Happy Sunday to you all =)