some sort of rollercoaster...

ohhh from happy hair, to a husband with pneumonia. double, in both lungs this time. and he had this only 4 months ago :(. so last couple of days were some kind of rollercoaster for me.

it started out as a flue for him, but rapidly he was very very ill. luckely this time i recognized it and he got some strong medicine. it's worse this time. i also had to take over his work, which is kinda LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS because the man works hard. very hard. so past weekend I worked and with the help from such sweet friends and amazing employees we pulled it off. i'm so proud to have so many sweet friends around me, who will help me when I ask for help.

and that just there is my problem. i don't ask for help. if somebody offers help and I really need it, I will take it. but asking for help, is from a whole other planet for me! I know it's stupid, because I help my friends also, when they ask me. or I offer my help myself if I see they might need it.

but asking for it. men, why is it that hard? I don't think it's failing, because I know I work my cute little ass off. I don't think i'm a looser, because i just am NOT. maybe it's the part of thinking they are too busy already, I don't want to put them in a position where they can't say no to me, but want to say no, and get in trouble. you know, i LOOVVEEEE to think for other people...

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so another challenge is born. ASK FOR HELP if i need it.

life is good. asking for help is healthy.
rev