The Rapid Reflections of a Meditating Blogger…LOL…From Me to You
This blog is centered on me and my natural hair counterparts, such as my great friend Chawana, bringing content to you that deals with the maintenance and overall beauty of natural hair. It’s also centered on my musings as a black woman and how I find my way around society—at home…in life…and in the workplace, because I know that we share the same musings… and issues… and calamities. A lot of people like to say that there is no ‘black’ issue anymore or that there is no issue surrounding black women. But I would like to say to you, those recent issues with the NBA and matters that personally sound me, demonstrates that time has only changed the way things accumulate but the same problem exists. Case in point…my issue…that I will semi-candidly share with you today in hopes of understanding and, of course, education…and help from you guys with my dilemma.
If you know me, you know that I am introverted and a writer. I am at often times ‘awkward’. I love doing things in the outside world but I keep my private life …well…private. I’ve been dealing with a lot of things lately and my outward appearance may be different from the one that I have to deal with internally. I am depressed, sad, and sometimes lonely. I have to find my way out of what I’m going through. I have to deal with a significant weight gain that has been attributed to this and with the sadness comes emotional eating. On top of personal issues, come professional issues. The constant realization that my counterparts believe that I am incompetent and my constant quest to prove them wrong through the quality of work that I produce along with the inclusion of others in my work to show that I am, indeed, a team player. I don’t want to do things alone…but alas, sometimes I think I have to.
I am speaking to you guys in a roundabout manner…but in that roundaboutness that I am displaying…I am sure that you all agree that you’ve been in my shoes. You’ve had a tragic thing happen to you that tends to loom upon you every day of your life. You cry at random moment s of the day and wonder why this thing happened to you. On top of that, you work long and hard and know that you are competent but then realize that people you work with only see you as incompetent and you have to prove yourself among men…and you have to prove yourself as a black women.
This is not a rant at all. It’s an accumulation of my current thoughts at the time as a writer and as a representative of a black woman in her journey through life. This may as well be an accumulation of thoughts as an intellectual, although, some people forget that above all things, my intellect rules me. It was the thing that has helped me obtain my bachelors degree in less than 3 years with a 3.2 GPA…helped me teach myself how to crochet and build things…helped me to create this blog from scratch and gain a significant following of visitors each week for over 3 years now. As I write this, I hope you realize that, your intellect has also helped you to achieve things in your life that no one ever gives you credit for…
We all talk about having self-confidence…but as a singular in a collective of people, sometimes our self-confidence gets bruised by not being able to build upon the things that you’ve worked so hard to gain within that collective.
I guess what I’m trying to say is we…as women and as black women, always stand in the shadows of something…but we are all great…despite our tragedies and our struggles with life. Our accomplishments may be shadowed among the many but that shadow should never be cast upon us internally.
Just because you do not get outward accolades, doesn’t mean you are not a success. Keep working for yourself, build your dynasty and you will ultimately be rewarded at the end.
Take my advice because I am doing as I say…because I am saying this because I have to do this…to survive as an intellectual…as a woman…as a black woman…as a collective…in my life and hopefully as an advocate FOR YOU AS WELL.
You guys are my muse. And as you already know, I appreciate you more that I can ever say in these words that appear to you on this blog.
I just had to share this and I cannot wait to share my review of a few of the ILOVEMYFRO products that I purchased as a free sample…LOL. LOL, maybe the word purchased is incorrect in that context…let’s just say that I purchased the shipping of these awesome sample products and cannot wait to share them with you.
Until next time….
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