get out of my head

Photo via: Joel Sossa

I want to know what's the problem with me.
I know is a really silly thing to send to you but I need to share this with someone.
I have an amazing boyfriend who really loves me, is nice to me, cares about me and is my best friend.
So why do I have to miss the guy I was in love 3 years ago? Why do I suddenly started to think so much about someone who forgot me long ago? Why he still makes my heart beat so fast if I am 100% sure that he is not the right one for me?
WTF heart

Here, this is for you J.:
When I'm just doing normal things and then I see myself near that park bench, or in the corner of that street that nobody goes or just sitting in that table on the 6th floor in the engineering building... I feel a little, very little ache in my heart, because I know we are never going to be "us" again, we probably never going to hang out there and just talk unimportant stuff. I'm not going to hear stupid stories from you and laugh nonstop, the way that only you can make me do.

I know we never had anything serious but I miss what we had, whatever it was.

I know you moved on, have dated so many girls and now you even moved to another city. So please, get out of my head because I found someone special that I love so much, and I want to be with him, I want to be entirely with him. I'm okay with you being my friend (I guess), but just friend. I don't want to feel this for you anymore.