Weigh In Update

This week’s weight: 185

I’m back in the zone.

Every now and then in the wide world of weight loss, everything just “clicks.” All the moving parts, the physical, the mental, the emotional, they fall into harmonious agreement and the goal comes sharply into view. Choices become clear. The glossy appeal of all things food begins to dull, and visions of smaller dress sizes and a slimmer figure come to the forefront of the mind. I’m so happy to be back here. Thankful to belong to a God who rescues.

It’s funny how decisions that were so agonizing a short time ago seem so simple now. I’m pretty sure I helped myself to two of everything at the department bake sale last month because everything looked so darn good. But I went out of town this past weekend and didn’t splurge once. At one dinner, we had a basket of fresh rolls in front of us with whipped cinnamon honey butter. After moving it to the other side of the table where it wouldn’t be directly in my line of vision, I didn’t give any more thought to it. I’m on a mission, and that’s that.

Sometimes I go to bed with a little grumble in my stomach, but I’m far from starving. And I don’t feel sorry for myself. Overreating is a disaster for me in that way. I think I’m treating myself, but really I just end up feeling terrible, and that leads me to try and assuage my feelings with even more food, and that leads to weight gain, and that leads to self pity.

But I don’t have to live like that, and I won’t live like that. I started writing this blog because I wanted something better for myself than a life of quiet misery, and I owe it to myself to finish the journey. To get through the 180s, 170s, 160s, 150s, 140s, and into the 130s. Maybe I’ll look like a skeleton and have to stop before that… I don’t know. I’ve never seen myself at that weight. But the point is, I have a perfectly functioning body and it is worth the investment. It’s worth my sweat, and my tears, and my patience.

It is frustrating to trip and fall. But that’s not a reason to quit.

Back in the saddle,

Elle

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