Independence Day
Today was an unexpectedly emotional day for me. I started working full time in Feb for the first time in two years (this one didn't work out) which was an adjustment in itself. Couple that with now being a mother (and one who had spent the first full year at home with baby), I had A LOT of feelings. I knew it was normal for there to be an adjustment period for both of us when he started daycare.The first few days were horrible for Grey! He'd cry the entire day and would only stop if he were held in someones arms. Much faster than I expected, he eventually became well adjusted and social. Sure he'd still cry a little when I hand him over but he's over it by the time I hit the door. Sometimes I'll peek in and he's playing with a toy or his little friends when he thinks I've already left.
This morning however, something unexpectedly happened that made me realize that my 15 month old is not the newborn that I took home from the hospital anymore. I put him to sit in his big boy chair in class, and much to my surprise he reached for the book on the table, opened it and seemingly forgot that I was there. He didn't cry, didn't wave good bye - nothing. He just sat obediently in his seat and flipped through his little toddler book. I started tearing up when I got back in my car.
Firstly, when did he grow up so fast? And when did he become so independent? At this stage he's constantly surprising me with the things that he knows how to do. Weekly there's something new, but today he supposed my husband and I both with new skills. He's growing up so quickly. I definitely miss being at home, but as I do have to work at this time, I can see that he's in great hands. That alleviates some of my worries. It's just that, I remember the pregnancy with him dragging on as my mind played tricks on me - it seemed like he'd never get here. Now he's saying "highs" to everybody and practically running. It really does go fast. Thankfully I have quite a few more years until he's fully independent and doesn't need his mommy for everything.
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