Turns out, I’m a bit of a bridesmaidzilla…

aww look how much younger I look in this…and thinner. Damnit!

My sister Oohey is getting married!!

She’s been with her boy for around 10 years and I had begun to give up hope until we got THE phone call.
It was 6 in the morning and I was so excited but I didn’t want to wake the boys up by screaming and jumping up and down like a crazy person so instead, I did a silent bum wiggle dance across the walk in wardrobe in silence.

Then I got off the phone and burst into tears.
Most of them were happy tears but some of them were because I miss her so much and I’m really sad that I won’t get to do most of the planning and exciting stuff with her because we live across the other side of the world from each other.
I want to go with her when she finds her wedding dress. I want to sit and drink tea and look through wedding magazines pointing out the hideous and the beautiful.

Stupid dumb Australia and being so far away.

Anyway, I’ve become a bit of a monster. My pinterest boards are slowly being overtaken with bridal bouquets, bridesmaids dresses and SO MUCH PRETTY!
I’ve taken over the TV watching Four Weddings, Say Yes To The Dress and Bridezillas.
I actually walked past the magazine rack the other day and was almost tempted to buy every magazine with a bride on it.

I’m dreaming of weddings. I had a dream the other night that my other sister was getting engaged and her boyfriend gave me the ring to look after…and I lost it. I lost the ring. I woke up so cranky with myself AND with her boyfriend for giving me such a responsible job.

As I am probably already driving her insane (sorry) I realise that i’m doing this because I miss her so much and I want to desperately help her have a beautiful day.

This of course has made me really look at myself and it’s time to really do something about my weight.
I’ve been lacking motivation and this is just what I need.
This evening I spent some time making a cool inspiration board to put in the bedroom in front of my cross trainer so when I’m working my butt off I keep myself motivated. I’m joining the gym tomorrow and I’m going back to paleo because that’s what works for me.

A year and a few months to go.

I’m going to drive everyone mad.