Bigger Than My Body (that's not a fat joke)




So, a lot of you have been asking about an update on my foot. So, here it is. If you want a refresher about what happened, you can read this post HERE. Basically, I was in a really bad sledding accident, broke my whole body, had to have surgery, the doctor damaged my nerve, now my ankle/foot is paralyzed. Ta-da! It's been a long, hard road, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?! Right.

Since my last surgery, things have been a little easier. I don't have to wear my big plastic brace, I just have to wear an athletic brace or wrap. I feel somewhat 'normal' again.

Here's the answer to the question I get the most. No. The answer is no. No, I'm not better. No, my foot isn't healed. No, it's not going to get any better. It's about as good as it's going to get. I will improve. I will get stronger. I will learn more how to manage my foot, and keep trying new things. But, my foot is about the best it's going to be.

Sometimes, it's hard to answer questions about my foot. Not because it bothers me to talk about it, because, this has been such an emotional journey for me. I know there a lot of people out there who's life are a lot harder than mine, but this has still been a painful journey for me. I wish I wasn't in pain all the time, I wish every step didn't hurt, I wish I could wear cute shoes, I wish I could wiggle my toes in the sand. But, all that wishing won't help me any. Even though at times, this is really hard, I've decided to not let it define me. At times, I feel defined by it, but I have to remember that I'm bigger than my body. (Cue
John Mayer.)

Even though I don't always feel happy about this new path of mine, I'm still grateful and I still try to find the best out of the situation. I'm so very blessed. I really, truly am. And even though weird things happen to me, and trials keep coming, I'm so very blessed. I just, I can't thank God enough. Isn't it amazing how much He loves us? I mean, think about it, but not to hard, your head might explode. His love is just that amazing.

So, the update is. My foot is the same. But, I do everything in my power to become a better person, to improve, to grow, to become the type of woman I want to be. Because, I'm not my foot. I'm Nichelle. There's a lot more to me then a brace on my ankle. And there's a lot more to you then what you are going through. Remember that.

I'm not saying it's easy to remember that. I forget. Daily. I'm way too hard on myself. I really struggle to see past my imperfections. All I really want to do is improve and progress, but I don't take the time to appreciate they things I'm doing right. I only focus on what I'm doing wrong, or not doing, or how I need to be better.

Maybe you all realize how awesome you are, because I know that everyone of us has different and unique talents and personalities that can bless and help others. I just know, that I need to remember that I'm better than I give myself credit for.

Now, here's the part of the post where I just end things awkwardly. Because these are my raw thoughts. This is what's on my mind. This is my heart. Life can hurt sometimes, but that doesn't mean it's not wonderful. (Cue
Jason Mraz)
La La La La La La La Life is WONDERFUL. (and so are you.)

Live Long & Prosper, Chelle
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