Breaking. Up.

Hi guys. Me again.... I know it's still been a while, but I really needed somewhere to vent.
I'm struggling the past couple hours with the break up. It's been 3 weeks on Tuesday. 3 WHOLE WEEKS?! Like wtf... What I can't comprehend is how you can go from barely lasting 3 hours without talking to someone to not talking to someone on the phone for 3 whole weeks ?!?!?!?!
LOVE doesn't disappear that quickly. You CAN'T stop loving someone like that. I'm really struggling because they seem like they're fine. I however, am not.
How do you handle a breakup? I've been through breakups before. I never know how or when it happens, but I want to be at the part where you look around and realize that you're FINALLY over it. That's when I'll feel MUCH better. Right now this sucks. A LOT. I still love you tremendously. I understand your reasons for being selfish. But I don't comprehend why you can't grow as a person while being in a relationship. I've already changed so much of myself, realized what I did wrong, and started to fix it within my self. But you wouldn't know, because you don't want to be here with me.
I've written and erased a ton of text messages. I never send them because I know you don't want them. The worst day ever happened and I wanted to call you but I couldn't. I didn't want to bother you with my nonsense that matters not to you. That is sad.

Sorry for venting. I'm just struggling. I miss that person to cuddle me at night. I miss the touch and affection. I miss the love and our amazing conversations. I miss our adventures together. I miss being there for eachother. I just miss it all.

Any suggestions? :/

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