Hurting: Not Tied To The Soul Anymore.

I just didn't know.

I didn't know why.

The uncertainty stained my pillowcases with tears, hung over my head like a cloud, occupied my wake and sleeping thoughts... I just didn't know why.

I had to go about my life, attempting to move on without knowing why, but just accepting that what happened was the end of that chapter...

I had to come to terms with the fact that I'll probably never get an answer to the question, 'why?'.

As I did finally get my answers over time (with a bit of struggle), about why it all ended, I managed to find enough closure to step onto the path of healing.

Closure helps you close that chapter of your life and start the next one.

I've been fortunate enough to get it, although I had to really seek it. Others are not as fortunate, even when they seek it.

In cases where there's no closure, it takes much longer to accept, heal and move on.

It was hurting. Hurting. Haunting. Bothered by it 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Never thought or imagined anything or anyone could have such a hold on me.

I'm slowly being released from what tied my heart to that soul, a soul that I thought could never harm but caused me the most pain.

It was a soul I loved for what I wanted to see; I fell in love with the idea I thought it was, not with its reality.

I snapped out of that dream and reality hit hard, really hard... I fell for the image, not for the real...