Things are changing....
We are getting ready for Kindergarten around here...little C is ready to go to a "big" school and I am quietly coaching myself through the process of letting go a little. I have a hard time thinking about my baby being away from me for 8 hours a day, in others' care, around lots of (great folks I'm sure) but frankly, strangers to me. I wanted to be brave and "together" through this process but instead, when I think about it, my heart jumps into my throat and I want to cry! I need to get a grip.
We went to Potterybarn Kids the other day and I let him choose a backpack. Normally I keep the choices carefully paired down but this time I only had one rule. "No faces please." In other words, I am not buying a backpack with Darth Vader on it.
Is that bad?! He's only 6! I'm just not that into you, Darth Vader. As I figured, his choice and my choice were a little off. I loved the navy and red nautical stripe (
I even told him he could put the scary pirate patch on it!) and while he did point out the Darth Vader one, he chose blue skateboard camo.
I guess it could've been worse -- for some reason PBK put snakes and spiders on many of the backpacks this year (
gee thanks!). What's next, a machete and a Budlight? How about a soccer ball or some cars and trucks?
Yesterday, on our way home from school, he says, "Mom, I don't want to wear these CUTE shirts anymore." Oh no, my heart is sinking.
"Well, what do you want to wear?" I say.
"COOL shirts", he replies. "My friend had on a shirt with a giant squid wrapped around a building."
Oh dear. I'm just not that into giant squids wrapped around buildings... I'm carefully choosing my wording these days and have eliminated 'cute' from my vocabulary. I'm hoping I can still sneak in a few *cool, awesome, manly* appliques without too much opposition. We shall see:)
In the meantime, let me also say I'm counting blessings. I'm thankful they are healthy, happy, and spunky with their little opinions. I'm thankful for these conversations we have together, because I still see them as the teeny tiny little babies I brought home from the hospital (and I remember dreaming of the days we'd have conversations and they could tell me what they want!). But they grow up way too fast y'all.