Around here – babies, moving, snow. Just nonsense.

This last week I abandoned my blog and the internet to sulk and feel bad for myself because we found out why we are having such a hard time getting pregnant. And it’s not impossible, but it’s going to be very hard because our chances of doing it ourselves are currently very low. So last week I was stuck in this horribly dark place where all I felt was hopelessness. But right now, after the immediate sting of it has subsided a tiny bit, I’m feeling a little better but it still fucking sucks. I don’t want to feel sad all the time because it’s exhausting (I’ve been going to bed at like 8:30 every night this week) so I’m trying to just go about things like they were 6 months ago before all these baby thoughts consumed every waking moment of my day because that was the last time I remember being truly happy and worry free. But easier said than done.

Other than that, nothing else has been going on. It keeps fucking snowing! I can’t even remember the last time I experienced a winter this nasty before. Probably back in the 90s when I was in middle school or something. For the first time, the amount of snow is actually making me feel claustrophobic. Usually the outdoors makes me feel safe and free when I’m having a panic attack but now the thought of being buried alive makes me panic. Thankfully, it’s been raining a lot so the snow is melting but there’s still like 10 inches of it go to. It was warm out today so despite the inches of snow, we played with the pups outside. I haven’t seen Monty happier to have a ball. He was digging it out of the snow and tossing it to himself he was so happy. And Mabel was so excited to play frisbee again. I want my damn yard back!

Also, we think we finally have a Colorado move date. Currently it’s September. But I’m not expecting anything to go to plan because that’s just the way shit rolls around here.

Let’s see what else…babies, moving, snow. That about covers it!

And here’s some exceptionally cute pics of the tiny heart breakers doing what they do best. If I didn’t have these guys in my life things would be way worse.