Just don't feel like it

I have a very bad case of apathy. Maybe it’s the time of year, the weather or the fact that I’m getting older. Maybe it’s that being on my own for such a long time has drained every bit of energy I ever had.
Lane did a great job of motivating me. If I didn’t feel like going to the gym he would push me to go with him. If I went on a diet he would be right there encouraging me and complimenting me every step of the way. And at work, he was my cheerleader when the stress started to get to me. In other words Lane kept me going when I wanted to quit.
Now I find myself easily caving in to “do as little as possible” syndrome. I have a hard time convincing myself to do a number of things, including socializing. It doesn’t matter what the task is, I usually just don’t feel like doing it. It is easy for me to come up with an excuse to skip the gym or ignore a phone message to “call me” from a friend.
I agree with everyone that right after your husband dies you need to do whatever you feel is right for you. If that means, sleeping all day and watching old movies all night by all means give yourself permission to do it. However, I’ve been a widow for 7 years. Isn’t it time for me to push myself to do what in my head I know I should be doing?
Oh well. I guess I don’t really feel like thinking about this right now. In the words of Scarlett O’Hara in Gone With The Wind, “Tomorrow is another day.”
How’s that for apathy?
Sue