Watching



I had to have surgery last week. It was pretty serious stuff but now I am doing really well, test results were great and I am on the mend. My family and friends were incredibly supportive. Everyone who cares about me really showed up in a big way.
The day before the surgery I thought about Lane a lot. I kept having weird conversations with myself. If the surgery went somehow wrong will I wake him and he’ll be there? Would I have felt more or less anxious if he was with me that day? Is he out there somewhere watching and waiting to see what happens like the rest of us? Why am I going through this without him? As always, I had no answers to these questions. But that didn’t keep from playing various scenarios over and over in my head.
While being wheeled to the operating room I tried to feel Lane’s presence. I thought that would give me comfort and courage. But nothing. Then the meds kicked in and the rest is history.
I woke up a few hours later in recovery and still no sign of Lane. It was over. I was fine. And life would go back to the way it is.
I got home a few days later. I was sitting in the kitchen talking to our daughter. I told her “no Dad sighting” before or after surgery. She was surprised that I sounded disappointed because she knows I am not a huge believer. Then suddenly the kitchen lights flickered. Maybe?
Do you feel your husband is watching over you?
Sue
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