Memoirs – Chapter Fifteen

I am not sure what is I was thinking at that moment. All I wanted was to leave the house. Its another thing about men that women fail to acknowledge but know. We can only resist temptation for so long. At first we say no and then when a person gets persistent we say she was asking for it. For some reason we took the line ‘don’t kick a gift horse in the mouth to heart” extra seriously as men. If she is throwing herself at us we are merciless and ruthless. However not all men read the signs well as mixed signals often lead you into trouble. I just wanted to leave the house. My wife was irritating me and she needed the space too I told myself. She had not even lifted head off the computer. I could see she too wanted me out of the house. She did say though without looking up that I had only an hour and a half out. She never does that I was surprised. Giving me a curfew was something new to me but even women know an hour is more thank enough for a man to do his business. I could not help but think of what was about to happen. For example, if I slept with her which I very much now intended to how was I going to come back home not smelling of sex! Crap I didn’t carry condoms with me and if I bought them at 7eleven then that would mean she would see me buy it and that’s never cool! Most married couples don’t use a condom so I would not have brought in any case because I had none. Its just a given that we think we are entitled to trust the other partner. If you think I am lying trying telling your husband to wear a rubber and see how he reacts!

I had to calm myself down because 7eleven though a 5minute drive felt like an age. What if she left? I was actually panicking with excitement! Imagine if all she wanted was to do was say hi. Women have power over men when you first meet them. At some stage the woman gives up and gives you all power over her but at the beginning we all know who is boss and tag, she was it! I don’t know how it happens but it does. This is what makes the man at the beginning of the relationship work extra hard to try please her. When I got 7eleven I saw her car there. I knew it already from the other night. I parked mine and walked to hers. She asked me what took me so long and I said nothing. She teased me how I had to sign out first like someone owned me. Somehow it got to me and made me feel small. I asked her why she has called and she said it was to see if I would come. Again I looked as stupid as I really was. When someone is single and you are married you should know that all you are to them is a game. They have nothing to lose compared with you that has so much to lose! She didn’t care whether I lost my wife or not! Why should she though if I was here myself? It was my job to care! Honestly though, I know women want to hear how torn up I was at this moment but I really was not. I told her a ring doesn’t own me its just a token. She said I must not disrespect the ring like that because marriage stood for something. I felt as though she was taunting me but did I care… No! All I wanted was to get inside those pants! She was actually coming from the gym in Rondebosch that’s how she had ended up here. It had not been some sinister plot to see me at all though I would have appreciated the effort.

I told her that I did not have long as my wife was waiting for me and she actually asked me to leave then if that was so important. Again I was stumped. When I did not leave she knew she had me where she wanted. She told me to relax she only had a few minutes to spare as well. She said we should leave my car and go park my car at a more private place! Hell no! We should rather drive together with both cars. We didn’t go far. We went and parked by Rosebank railway station not too far off! Its quite safe at night because police cars patrol there a lot. Our only worry therefore would be a nosey cop otherwise this was perfect. This time she came to my car. She suggested let’s sit in the backseat to create more space. Note at this stage she had not said what she wanted but you could see that this woman knew what she wanted. She did not play hard to get or so on. The moment I sat down she was on me. When you kiss someone properly for the first time it is like… Wow! For the first time I got to touch that body I had been craving for ever since I met her. She said that she was not going to have sex in the car nor was she going to give me oral but who cares I was doing something naughty and fun. Her body felt soft and perfect in my hands and her tongue on my skin was just what I needed. I got to explore everywhere with my hands except where the honey was. She said that she was on her periods and often when on she gets very very horny! Hold up, that’s like being a diabetic in a chocolate shop! You can look, smell, touch even but can’t eat! She can’t come here when she is on her periods that will mean I will never get laid! Ah come on now! I told that she would have to do something because I was hard as rock. She laughed and said she could feel it so no need to tell her. I was wearing track pants as those are my comfortable pants after work. She pulled them down and without hesitation wrapped her mouth around Junior! To any woman who says they cannot go down on their man I sincerely pray with all my heart that they cheat on you with someone who can! That’s how much I enjoyed it and that’s how much most men love it! This was beyond heaven and when you have not got it in a long time let alone from a new person its beyond words. Most men do not sleep with prostitutes, the just pay to get head! Fact!

I shall spare you the details but at some point it finished and she did not miss one drop. Another thing about having a mistress. She knows how to do the extremes whilst your wife plays madam at home! When I drove home yes I felt a bit guilty but I was glad I had released all that tension. Its not an excuse because after it has happened you can make all the apologies in the world and mean it to but it won’t change the fact.

I tried to make as little noise as possible as I tiptoed into the house. It was awkward. When I walked up the stairs I hope for the second time my wife would have put my pyjamas outside the door like previously. On the contrary, there she was standing with a naught smile on her face! My wife was wearing the sexiest lingerie I had ever seen her in! It was even a themed lingerie meaning it was meant for one thing and one thing only, seduce, fuck and destroy my senses! She smiled at me cheekily and sexily and said,

“I thought I would have to go to bed without you taking care of me!”

Of all the days in world she had to pick this day!

****The End****

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Michael Nkululeko Maphoto

Dear Mike

I am a married man and I have cheated 3 times with 3 different women since marriage. We have been married for nine years and am 35. Everytime I do it I tell myself that I will never do it again but I don’t know what happens. It is a bad thing and I know it. My wife though not very active in bed is a good woman. She is clean, she cooks and takes care of our kids and me. I know I should be grateful but often I find myself asking, “is this it? Is this what the rest of my life should be?”. I take her out every now and again but she really is not into that. She is not a church woman and I don’t mind because I always feel that if she gets born again then the little spark we have left will die. I am far from being saint because I cheat but I have noted that everytime I do I work hard at making my wife happy. Its like I have this extra energy to want to please her. I am not sure why am writing this letter but I guess its because of my shame and guilt. She is the best thing that ever happened to me but she is what will kill me too because I always reach a low point of boredom and routine. Is there anything you can advise that will get me out of this vicious cycle.

Thank You

Jack (not real name)