saying goodbye

Today is court hudson’s last post. I have sat down to write these words about a dozen times and I’m still not sure I have it right. However, I have spent a good deal of time toying with this decision and if it was the right one for me. And for now, it is. I started this blog as a means to explore, to learn, to share, but mostly to inspire and feel inspired. I wanted to share bits of style – fashion, food, décor – and I wanted to inspire others to build a stylish and creative life, whatever that meant to them.

With those intentions in mind, I have realized that my mission and my content have been feeling disconnected for some time. And maybe even larger than that, where do I belong and where do I want to belong? The truth: I don’t want to be a fashion blogger. I look at my outfit posts and ask myself, what am I achieving by posting these? I cannot find a response that makes me find the validation I am looking for. Am I inspiring anyone? Maybe. (Hi mom!) Am I inspiring myself? No.

Now, by no means do I say this to offend anyone. I love fashion blogs. I follow a slew of them religiously and look to them as sources of inspiration for my own life. I also love what fashion bloggers have done for this industry – yes, the good, the bad and even the ugly, the term “fashion” has become something that everyone can translate, not just those of a certain circle. The direction and the impact of the fashion blogging community will only continue to evolve, and that is an extremely exciting thing for a fashion lover. That said, I also don’t want to be a food blogger or a DIY blogger or a décor blogger, so where does that leave me? That is ultimately what I hope to figure out over the coming months. Yes, I still want to share, explore and experience all of those things, just in a different capacity.

For now, that means taking a step back. To allow myself to feel inspired again, rather than pressured to keep up. To go to the gym after work followed by dinner with friends, or to take the long way home, instead of worrying about putting up a post. To go out and try new things (French classes! Crossfit! Entertaining!) and see where they take me. To start living my life with no other intention than simply being present.

And eventually, I may return to this community. No longer as court hudson, but definitely with stories to share, a fresh perspective and a clearer focus on building that fabulously creative life.

So to my very first reader, to the first person to leave a comment and to my first blogger friend, thank you. For seeing something in what I was sharing to stick around, say hi and wanting to learn more about me. It is because of you that I have continued to share and have been lucky enough to be afforded opportunities that would have never existed without this space which I have come back to for these past three years.

If you need to reach me, you know where you can find me (here, here, here and here!)