FOR WOMEN WHO ARE DIFFICULT TO LOVE

Moving / Organizing / Re-examining / Analyzing

Just arrived back from Palm Desert yesterday (photos up soon).
I’ve ransacked my entire studio, threw out, revamped. I figured out a way to avoid distractions by throwing them all into one corner on a very uncomfortable table space.
It’s funny how much a week vacation can change your perspective on life.

More to come.
In the meantime, please enjoy this poem/spoken word piece by Warsan Shire, published first on her blog.

For Women who are ‘difficult’ to love:

You are a horse running alone
and he tries to tame you
compares you to an impossible highway
to a burning house
says you are blinding him
that he could never leave you
forget you
want anything but you
you dizzy him, you are unbearable
every woman before or after you
is doused in your name
you fill his mouth
his teeth ache with memory of taste
his body just a long shadow seeking yours
but you are always too intense
frightening in the way you want him
unashamed and sacrificial
he tells you that no man can live up to the one who
lives in your head
and you tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.
—Warsan Shire

- jm !