we've both grown



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Reading these stories has my heart extremely heavy. I see so many on here who long and hope and wait for love, this exact love that I have, and here I am, contemplating letting it go.

It was 2 years and 7 months ago that you came into my life. I know love at first sight may seem cliche, but that's exactly what it was. We met through a mutual friend, started talking, and haven't stopped since. We've been through so much in almost three years, and although I love you beyond words, I'm not sure I am good for you. A friend of mine told me "Love is electric. It is obsessive and consuming. When you are in love with someone, there is no room for boredom."

I don't deserve you. You deserve to be with someone who can give you everything you give me and more. Someone without a destructive, impulsive personality who is not constantly unsatisfied and jumping from one idea to the next. I can only give you stability for so long, and you don't deserve that. You came to me at a time when I needed saving. You were my security. I was young and foolish and you were a little older and everything I needed at the time. We've both grown so much in almost three years. I don't need that same security anymore, because I've developed it in myself. I am on a journey of self discovery and it has made me realize that maybe you were who I needed then because of who I used to be. I am not her anymore.

I love you so much that I continue to stay, but I don't know for how much longer. I met a new him and I am scared of what may develop between us. The last thing I want to do is hurt you but you've been my everything for so long, what about me? No one writes about these kinds of love stories. They are too painful.

Even if this isn't posted, I am happy I wrote it. Maybe one day I'll be courageous enough to tell you. Hopefully this helps someone, I know someone is out there wondering about this kind of love story.
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