"I never wanted to weigh more heavily on a man than a bird." -Coco ChanelWords to live by. Once again Ana has pulled me back into her tight grasp. I will be fabulous. But first things first: ...
Okay so Im back again... always am. I always start to believe that Im just fine the way I am. I convince myself to settle for that I look like. But, Ana will always be apart of me. Although her voice...
I know it's been awhile but, unlike all the other times I leave for a ahwhile, I've been doing better than ever. Ana's been kinda quite recently but shes still that conscious little voice in the back...
I got really sick yesterday, mid-day. I think its because I was a little too close to my sister than I should have been. She was sick in the morning but, bless her heart, she came to school anyways. ...
So yeah. Of course its not a surprise that I didn't stick to ABC during spring break like I promised myself I would. Although, I should have known that I would fuck up at least ONCE with the people I...
I didnt count calories today for the sake of gym. and i thought it wouldnt be so bad if I continued to eat regular afterwards. um wrong! I didnt go crazy. I should've stopped myself from eating break...
so tomorrow I have gym and im still not sure whether i wanna push through the fatigue as long as I keep up ABC or should I skip ABC tomorrow and just a little lunch right before gym and have that be ...
So after my bust over the weekend, I realized that my body needs a break from ABC. I've been thinking about a couple ways to do it over the past couple over day while doing mental ABC (mentally count...
i cant believe it. it took me three days to loose 5 lbs and it only took me 2 to gain it all back. maybe its because i knew i would have to come back the next day. back to ana. and of course going to...
Yesss :) i didnt do awesome today but i did okay. normally i like to stay a few calories below what i'mm allowed just in casee but today I had everything perfectly planned out. 500 calories exactly. ...
i had my ramen at the right time today after my run and finished with exactly 500 caloriess :] woohoo then im going to bed right after this post so theres no room for error thats all. so tired night ...
So its about 3:15pm and I'm just watching Thinspo vids on youtube and getting in a quick blog before I start my homework :/ bleh. Im sooo so happy that today's almost done for my first day of ABC aga...
So todays fast went well. My ultimate plan was to fast today and start ABC tomorrow with a 450 calorie plan so I have a 50 calorie cushion if I start to mess up. I weigh about a pound less than yeste...
This is just a short post. Ate nothing yesterday after my last post yay (: its 12:01 pm and I havent eaten anything so far today. Im planning on fasting today but if not i'll stay under 500 calories....
I cant believe I ever had the right to feel jealous. Jealous of every skinny girl I see. I am only allowed to be jealous when I've actually DONE something. I can only feel jealous when I've TRIED to ...
Well today was a shitty day.. all i did was eat. Fuck. Obviously im not giving up. It always takes me a couple days to get back into good eating habits. Thats why i'm not too pissed. But once i've go...
Wow ! 53 followers :) why thank you. i love seeing you guys follow because it means im not in this alone. I know others share the same amazingly insane obsession to be skinny. I will be. No matter wh...
I quite enjoyed this thinspoo! check it outtohh and THIS ONE!
*****I didnt realize how long and pointless this post got halfway through & I dont wanna scare off lovely motivational comments because I pretty much ranted about all my stupid troubless lol sorr...
Its Been Awhile sorrry :/ i promised i would keep up with the blog. It keeps me focused. Its always something to do when I felt like eating ya know. But surprisingly ive been doing well. I mean I hav...
So I guess I did decent today. I really did try to fast. And I did for as long as I could. Til about 4 0' clock. My mom decided she wanted breakfast for dinner. Then, my sister overheard and being th...
Alright so the fast didnt go as planned but i didnt lose control which is good. But I forgot how hard it was to get back into my eating pattern :/ why the hell does food have to taste so damn gooood....
How could I abandon this lifestyle. Ana was the only thing I had to myself. It was my dirty little secret that no one else knew and only I controlled. I forgot how good it felt to be so in control. E...
I can't even begin to put into words hoe guilty I feel for leaving Ana behind for MONTHS! What the hell is wrong with me?! Ugh I've turned into a FAT pig. Like fattt! Since we moved here in May we st...
So today didn't really go as planned but it wasn't exactly a fail. I'm about to start cheering again soon so I'm gonna have to start eating a little more so I don't pass out as every practice. Im eve...
Heey guys. So heres the deal: I decided that I'm gonna alter my ABC plan just a little so that I follow loyally every five days then the weekends are for me to stay under 800 calories. Why? because I...
hey if you read my blog please don't forget to follow. I love the comments and support and the more the better so keep em coming ! i promise to comment back (: anyways i have a great story. yesterday...
Okay so yesterday, besides starting ABC, it was also the first day of my junior year...at my new school. I didn't mention this but just before summer I moved away from all my friends of 16 years ! I ...
Hey guys. Sorry no posting in awhile :( I spent awhile at a friends house back in the old city where I used to live. Of course I couldn't control myself to stick to my diet while I was there. And it ...
The songs on repeat! When it first came out I wore it out for myself just like THAT. But I came across it in a thinspo video. loll & it seemed so appropriate too haha. Anyways my fast yesterday w...
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