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Belle in arms
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WHISKEY TANGO

Once I start I cant seem to stop. I always want more. No I always need more. You know.The fast paste of this city scares the living shit out of me, its like what ever I try to grasp just keeps floati...

17 feb 12

Everybody, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them,...

22 jan 12

How to alienate everyone around you

Never ever ask anything similar to "and how about you"NEVER

21 jan 12

Last night I grew wings and learned how to fly

Its midnight, at China white and Im not sure why Im here. But I do know with whom. Eva dances by her self in a dark corner and I cant keep my eyes away from her. I finish my drink and order another o...

19 jan 12

So, Im alive. sort of. Im just.. in a loss of words. swimming around my own ocean, an ocean of doubt and pain. Fuck it. Im back. Lets talk more tomorrow.

18 jan 12

I miss you

25 dec 11

Ive been to hell and back so many times

Sometimes you all scare me. Because there are so many of you now. In my mind though, youre a small grou of ten or possibly twelve out there reading. I feel as though we could all fit around one or tw...

18 nov 11

ITS MY BIRTHDAY AND ILL DIE IF I WANT TO

30 oct 11

Rules of attraction

Been down and out for a while now. My fever still runs high, and my mind is almost starting to get used to this overheated state. I try to fight it by dressing up, pretending to have plans that requi...

28 sep 11

What I have been up to

Fever sweats and strong pain killersIve spent the last couple of days in bed. Half awake, half asleep. I dreamt about Patrick Bateman carefully removing my teeth with a hammer. One by one. Someone on...

21 sep 11

GREED IS GOOD, SEX IS EASY, YOUTH IS FOREVER

18 sep 11

Abandon all hope ye who enter here

Another sleepless night passed. Autumn, you used to be my hero. My savior from the torture of summer heath. The passion in august makes me sick. With half closed eyes I stood on my balcony, overlooki...

15 sep 11

Remembrances of guilty pleasures past

Remember Chloè? I saw a crow this morning and it made my heart stop. Black eyes, dead feathers. When he lifted off and flew away, I felt as though I was watching her leave all over again. I might as ...

14 sep 11

SONG FOR CLAY

Feasting on sleeping pills and camel blues (Self pity wont save you, Eva said with a troubled look on her face)Self pity can be the most beautiful thing, if executed properly- Matching underwear- Red...

13 sep 11

Im yours to knock around

I stayed in last night. Eva kept me company for a while, but later left me alone with my books. Her phone called, and something more important demanded her attention. Ive never asked to be her highes...

11 sep 11

IMPERIAL BEDROOMS

Woke up realizing that the Tramadol had worn off. The thing is, it only kills pain if taken before it really hits you. Otherwise its nothing more than a light layer of cotton covering a wide open wou...

09 sep 11

Less than zero

When he shut the door behind him five hours ago (or was it ten? Ive lost count) and walked out of the same apartment as he have walked out of so many times before it didnt hurt as much as I though it...

08 sep 11

The night I first met Eva

Last winter, when everything was covered in white. It was that time of year when you can hear your own steps, a Twin peaks kind of sound followed every move. I was almost passed out, sitting alone by...

07 sep 11

Lets clear something out

This is a story, just as every life is. Our lives will someday be reduced to a short summery that will be told to our grand children when we pass. Life doesnt end with death, not if youve made an imp...

06 sep 11

SKETCH

If he can do it, so can I Eva was a mess last night. Her share must have been cut to many times. To much laxatives. She was up against the walls, down on the floor, on top of the roof. I watched from...

05 sep 11

I got a nasty habit

Woke up five minutes a go.My head spins, and I cant seem to focus on anything. I notice the apartments empty. He left again, but his bag is still here. Hell come back. Thank god. Eva called again, an...

04 sep 11

F-F-F

Father figure Frank didnt come home until this morning. A dinner party doesnt go on all night. I sat up, wearing his shirt and drinking his gin while waiting. Tried to read but couldnt focus. I longe...

04 sep 11

Memories

Frank just left to attend a dinner party over at West End, and since I dont do West end anymore I decided to stay in. The lace dress is a nightgown for kids, used to wear it when I was seven or eight...

03 sep 11

Prologue

Some of you have heard this story before, some of you think you know all about my father figure Frank and some of you are new and have no idea. So I thought Id break it down to you. Hold your breath ...

03 sep 11

Woe to you, my Princess, when I come... you shall see who is the stronger, a gentle girl who doesnt eat enough or a big wild man who has cocaine in his body. Freud ,Letter to his fiancée, Martha Bern...

03 sep 11

Ive got it all

Frank wakes me up, I had fallen a sleep on the bathroom floor in the middle of the day. During these few days without painkillers I seem to have forgotten the proper dose. His eyes filled with fear, ...

02 sep 11

Father figures and gin

September, and I make a difficult decision. My countdown starts now where it all ended once before. Breakfast with Frank, in the dining room we sit across from each other and stare. I: In my robe, ha...

01 sep 11

My skin is itching, and its keeping me awake. I drag sharp nails across my chest, scratch my back until it bleeds, rub some supposed miracle cream all over but nothing seems to help. Is this what it ...

30 aug 11

Hes coming

I dont remember, A. I dont know who you are. Im sorry (Oh, I wish I was) Father figure Frank called last night. I was dizzy from banging my head against the wall. Theres no more T in my drawers. I ne...

29 aug 11

Riots and cake

They tried to burn down my city, you know. Where was I? Inside eating cake. Safe between thick concrete walls. Ive never really participated in anything, so the thought of starting then wasnt really....

24 aug 11

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