Im so sorry I left for a few days. I had to get myself back on track. I did 2 days of binging, maintained, 2 days of fasting, gained (wtf?), another 2 days of fasting and now Im back to 158. Ok, so I...
Yesterday I was 158. Today Im back up to 160. Weight gain always wants to make me starve myself even more though, so I wont stress too much over it, Ill just eat very little today and I bet Ill be ba...
Just wanted to let you know I got out of it all. I only had to eat a third of a pizza in the end (only.. funny word to use). I just weighed in right after eating and Im at 161 lbs so over night Ill p...
I think Ill stop counting the days now. You are all so lovely. You make me smile with all your supportive, understanding comments. So, weigh in today: 160 (yay!). I have to go out to dinner today. Iv...
Yesterday I overate a little. Ended up at around 1000 cals. Didnt gain though. Still 161 lbs. Only 35 pounds left now. LOL. I still cant believe I was 141 once and I gave up. And gained all this weig...
Now I got over that nasty 162, life seems a little easier. Weigh in this morning: 161. Another half of a pound down since yesterday. I havent eaten anything yet and its 6:30 p.m. Ive also burnt 100 c...
I did it. I said yesterday that it was really hard to get rid of the number 162 on the scales because its a persistent number, but I did it. Im down to 161.5Ok, so I only lost half a pound since yest...
Day 8 went great, I didnt eat anything until 7 pm. I was at the beach all day and I think Im more tanned. I only had 400 cals and this morning I was back to 162 as I had been on days 5 and 6. This is...
500 calories? Yeah right. Oh dear, I did so badly, I dont even want to talk about it. I have have have to make up for it. What makes us binge? What makes food so worth it? Its not worth the food, why...
Yesterday was bad. I binged and purged in the morning and my whole digestive system got upset about the purging. I had only done it twice this time and 2 years ago I was a proper bulimic, I purged tw...
I would like to point out that I, in now way, want to make publicity for eating disorders and do not want anybody who does not suffer from one, to feel like I am motivating them to be anorexic. This ...
To those of you who have been having trouble finding my blog (thank you, Tracy), Im really sorry. I changed the link to it and I thought it would change automatically on your dashboards. Obviously, I...
Up until now everything has gone well, except I had a beer yesterday, which made my calorie count go over 500. Im not going to kill myself for it though. I havent lost any weight since I started the ...
Looks like yesterday was better than I thought. I thought I would gain and be fat fat fat. Turns out I lost. I am sticking to the 500 calorie plan though. Ive had 50 so far and it has kept me going f...
I want to become thin, beautiful and have really long hair and then become a vampire and wander this Earth as the best, most perfect version of myself, never becoming fatter, never becoming older, ne...
Dont really feel like talking much today. Ive not had a good day. Im depressed, annoyed at myself and angry. I hope you had a good day though, my lovelies.
I didnt do as well today as I did yesterday. I had to eat in front of people, which ruined it all. Pasta! Why? 500 cals (small serving). In total I had 1200 cals but I burnt 200 (thank God I love exe...
I ended up having 700 calories today. Please tell me if my rounding and approximation is correct the way you see it. I had (not in this order) 4 teaspoons of sugar (which I put in my 3 liters of tea)...
The symptoms are back. Worse than before. "Ana" haunted me until I gave in. I was eating for such a long while. 2-3 meals a day. Not even low fat or low calorie. I gained weight. That was sup...
This is my 200th post. I know I havent spent much time on here. Im fat and wobbly and disgusting and I dont want to be skinny anymore, just thin enough for me to feel good. I remember I felt good whe...
All I want for Christmas is Tom! And I got him back! I guess its not that much of a big deal, our fight was small, I just overreacted, but I was still paranoid and scared to lose him. Which made me l...
My weekend was hell. I fought with my dad, I fought with Tom, I wrote my application for university and soon I have to send it off. When I do, that will mean theres no going back. I will have to go a...
Trying to get rid of your appetite? There are certain electron microscopes that can take photos of pretty much anything that is small enough. Check this out, makes me cringe:These are human eyelashes...
Im sorry for abandoning you. I thought I could make it. I thought I could walk away from this all and just be happy. But if I had really believed that, I would not have weighed myself and I would not...
I had a dream about a guy the other night. A rocker, really awesome, mature, flirty and charming. I had a blind date with him in my dream, which at first, I didnt want to go to but my friends forced ...
Tomorrow Im restarting at the gym again. Hopefully Ill get used to the exercise again. I have more time on my hands now exams are over and Im going to use it for my body in a good way. I always got s...
My last exam today. Next exam will be in around 5 months so Im free for a while now! Yay!The Halloween party was really fun. Me and Tom danced (which we never do because hes too shy to) and had so mu...
Not losing anymore, just 2 days of maintaining. I guess it takes its time but thats fine. I can be patient. As long as I dont binge I will lose :)My boyfriend cried today because he was so upset abou...
Gah! Shes so thin! Me want!Im so glad Im still losing, Ive had a few days of not binging and I feel great! Binging brings us down so much, doesnt it? I want to write something inspirational for you, ...
I havent binged and Im losing veeeery slowly but steadily. I hope it stays this way. My boyfriend just told me he cant make it to my house today and I had a 500 kcal "binge" because of it. Ho...
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