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Infinity On High
xtheperfectmess.blogspot.com
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Eyes like a shutter, mind like a lens.
#27601 in All , #1104 in Photography

I wonder if the things that remind me of you, remind you of me.

Sometimes I feel like a journal is the one place I can be honest and real, where I dont have to weigh my words and worry about what Im supposed to say and what everyone is goin to think and who Im su...

17 may 12

Hong Kong photo diary: part three.

It was one thing to make a mistake; it was another thing to keep making it. I knew what happened when you let yourself get close to someone, when you started to believe they loved you: youd be disapp...

12 may 12

Hong Kong photo diary: part two.

My skin is not connected to my bones. My mind is somewhere other than the present. I am broken, split into fragmented shards of the person I used to be. The damage feels irreversible. I am being pull...

08 may 12

Hong Kong photo diary: part one

“Sooner or later we all discover that the important moments in life are not the advertised ones, not the birthdays, the graduations, the weddings, not the great goals achieved. The real milestones ar...

04 may 12

Life isnt about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

The thing is, its easy to live blind. Its easy to see things the way you want to see them and not for the way things actually are, but when reality hits you, thats when everything changes, because so...

30 apr 12

Guangzhou photo diary: part five

One of the scariest feelings in life is when you realise you arent afraid to die. You dont look when you cross the road. When you take pills you take however many come out. Youre not afraid when you ...

22 apr 12

Guangzhou photo diary: part four.

Right now, you might not feel the best youve ever felt, you might feel as though things will never get any better. But dont give up. Tomorrow you might see something wonderful. The thing youre worryi...

19 apr 12

Guangzhou photo diary: part three.

“We all run on two clocks. One is the outside clock, which ticks away our decades and brings us ceaselessly to the dry season. The other is the inside clock, where you are your own timekeeper and det...

16 apr 12

Guangzhou photo diary: part two.

“How those fires burned that are no longer, how the weather worsened, how the shadow of the seagull vanished without a trace. Was it the end of a season, the end of a life? Was it so long ago it seem...

14 apr 12

Guangzhou photo diary: part one.

"I saw the days of the year stretching ahead like a series of bright, white boxes, and separating one box from another was sleep, like a black shade. Only for me, the long perspectice of shades t...

12 apr 12 1 person likes this

You don’t drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.

"Perhaps the biggest tragedy in our lives in that freedom is possible, yet we pass years trapped in the same old patterns. Entangled in a trance of unworthiness, we grow accustomed to caging ours...

27 mar 12 1 person likes this

My thoughts dont make much sense because I dont know what Im thinking.

“It is a dull sensation, your heart breaking, like the sound of a pebble dropping on the sand. Not a shattering, not a tearing apart, there is nothing shrill or grandiose about the sensation. It is m...

19 mar 12

Biology may give you a brain. But its life that transforms it into a mind.

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to...

10 mar 12

The same thoughts seem to occupy my mind, especially late at night.

My eyes may be empty and expressionless. All that means is that I feel okay. Im coping. When Im sad .. I never show it. When Im on the verge of breaking down, I plaster on a gigantic smile and try to...

05 mar 12

Do we only smile and act happy to cover up the ache we feel inside?

Learn form the past, and then move on. Whats the point in crying over and dwelling in the past? As much as we wish, we cannot undo the past. We cannot take back the choices we made on the way. We can...

02 mar 12

Words are never enough to convey these horrible thoughts of mine.

Stereotypes. I dont understand them at all. I dont understand the point. I dont understand how someone can group a person into a certain category and assume that they are a certain way. It is one of ...

23 feb 12 1 person likes this

Lately, the world felt fragile, as if it might shatter beneath a careless touch.

Whatever comes my way, Ill get through it. It might be tough, but I know I can do it, with or without anyones help. "Are you sure youre going to be okay?" Maybe. Ill be fine. Im always fine. ...

18 feb 12

Remember when everything was what you wanted it to be? I dont either.

Everyday I ask myself "why am I still here?" Nothing has changed since yesterday and Im only going to end up doing everything I did the day before all over again. Wake up, get ready, wait for...

13 feb 12

Heres another thing to remember: hope is the only thing keeping you alive.

There is so much on my mind, yet Im left standing here with not much to say. It all makes sense in my mind but when I open my mouth to speak, instead of flowing out, all the worlds stumble over each ...

04 feb 12 1 person likes this

It is the things you cannot see coming that are strong enough to kill you.

"You think you’re the only one with a shitty past? You think you’re the only one who’s always trying to change it? I have news for you. Everyone has crap in their background, everyone has things ...

03 feb 12

Even when I wasn’t trying, all I that I ever did was let people down.

Nobody has it easy. Everybody has problems whether its friends, family, school, money, food, or even shelter. You dont know what they go through. Nobody is perfect. So before you start judging, criti...

29 jan 12

Sometimes, the people with the worst pasts, can create the best futures.

“As I say the words, I realize how true they are. And maybe thats the trick to getting through it, through life: realizing that everybody, including ourselves, is lugging around some kind of screwed-...

27 jan 12

You cant possibly be scared of dying when youre already dead, right?

It’s like I have a whole world walled up inside of my chest and it’s burning me up, it’s killing me, but I can’t show this on the outside. I have to stand upright, smile, laugh, when inside all ...

24 jan 12

Don’t fall into the trap of pretending that everything is okay when it’s not.

My brain cannot get rid of the thought. Once its there, it cannot be erased completely. Even if I try, the faded marks will alway be there. It will stick with me forever until I finally die. Only the...

18 jan 12

And I somehow always felt less lonely when I was completely alone.

Have you ever felt like you were trapped in a room, clawing at the walls, trying to get out? Sometimes I feel like Im trapped by life. Sometimes I feel like Im trapped within my own mind. I really ju...

12 jan 12

Why is this happening? What did I do to deserve this? Will it ever end?

This emptiness is starting to take over my life. I dont want to do anything. I dont see any point in doing anything. But I dont want to just sit here doing nothing either. That makes me feel just as ...

09 jan 12

Listen to the voices inside your mind as they torture you to your death.

You see her sitting there and you think "she’s so sad." But it’s not that she is sad, she has simply given up on pretending to be happy every single day, she is tired of getting up every morn...

06 jan 12

Just because I act like nothings wrong, doesnt necessarily mean its true.

Those brief, confusing moments, when it’s totally visible, totally clear. That what I’m doing is not normal. That how I’m living is not as natural as it feels. That not everyone actually totally-know...

01 jan 12

Maybe we have to get a little messed up before we can step up.

Were so afraid to tell people how we feel because we have no idea how theyre going to feel back. You can never take back what you said and its hard to figure out if things will be the same. So, inste...

28 dec 11

Wasnt getting what you wanted all along the very definition of being happy?

“If you take a book with you on a journey, an odd thing happens: The book begins collecting your memories. And forever after you have only to open that book to be back where you first read it. It wil...

23 dec 11

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