selflessness is dead.

numb yourself. cause those people whom you think know you, they don’t actually do. you think they do, but you’re actually over thinking and thinking too highly of them. don’t. you’ll end up hurt....

22

sooner or later, so why not just face it. in any case, I no longer know who are my friends anymore. changes denied. I tried, thought through things. and maybe at the end of the day, I realize that...

viva la vida

I was going to be cliche, and give a summary for this year. yeah, was. but really, I have an extremely short term memory and am just going to go with this. academic wise, I think I have nothing...

cause you burn with the brightest flame

somehow, hall of fame by the script is encouraging to listen to. “you wake up, and half the year is gone. you’re 21″ probably will have a different feeling when i listen to this next year on 30th...

paradise

this is probably the worst tutorial I’ve ever attempted. spent such a long time trying to read up and yet at the end of the day I can’t even do a single question. worst thing is that this is the...

sad.

but I’m scared to death, that there may not be another one like this and I confess, that I’m only holding on by a thin thin thread. how long has it been.so long, it’s become a habit. it grows on...

regrets.

working sucks. that, or maybe I chose the wrong course. life’s filled with what-ifs. what if I hadn’t said that 3 years ago. what if I had listened to him and went to nie instead. what if all this...

TT

suddenly thought of the times when the lil bro and I would bring our table tennis bats down to the void deck and play. to speak the truth, table tennis is kind of fun. ahh, should really start...

im at a payphone.

life’s .. i want to say good, but its not exactly really good given that its the period before exams now. its when the fact that exams are going to screw you up so bad again hits you. especially...

je ne sais pas.

sometimes, when you think you know a person, think again. le petite brain of mine is always wasting energy on things that it shouldnt be wasting energy on. or is it not? in any case, this...

if you’re a friend, you help. if you’re a friend, you listen. if you’re a friend, you’ll know what to do. easily said, but so hard to achieve. im not a good friend, so i dont expect anyone to be mine.

beth, what can i do?

what did that mean. and what does this mean. its difficult trying to figure out what others are thinking, whats the rationale behind what their actions, and what they’re trying to tell you. yes,...

xoxo.

that feeling’s here to stay. there’s always a reason, but we dont always know how to explain it. but i know i can trust it. i know it when it’s different. unlike any other, it bears uncanny...

and i keep running into myself.

so the bell that signifies the start of another month just rang. time’s passing but i feel like i’ve really accomplished nothing for the past 3 years or so. not doing anything, it makes me feel...

nothing good will come out of this right? tell me what i should do. i need to stop doing things that will make me feel this way. im the last priority, arent i? and it’s because of you. and every...

winning, is everything.

I was angry. I was affected. I was everything that I didn’t want myself to be. why? the answer to everything. I can never win this.

what if.

so what if I like him too? what happens? do we fight for it?

incoherence

everyone changes, for the good or bad, knowingly or unknowingly, willingly or unwillingly. nobody is the person they are 10 or even 5 years ago. the crux is in how you manage to keep the people and...

wicked

haven’t felt this happy in a while. it’s a different kind of happy and no one can imagine how I felt. sometimes, a little meetup lasts a long way. I just have to learn to make the feeling last. too...

salut.

been on a hiatus since forever. year 2 sem 1′s over and we’re now officially at the halfway mark of university education. what have I achieved? honestly, I don’t know. it feels like I’ve lived the...

time after time.

do you know that feeling when, the more you can’t get something, the more you want it? call it weird or weird , sometimes its just how the brain and your heart works. things dont ever work out the...

do you ever feel?

I don’t even know how to begin saying how I feel right now. how do you even have such feelings for someone you barely know? maybe it’s cause you’re getting really tired of holding on. maybe it’s...

where did i go wrong, i lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness.

feeling so awful now, its as though i just gave birth. stupid cramps, just short of the stretch marks and baby only. sigh, the longest time. in any case, its the 3rd week after recess week...

maybe we’re better off this way, it’s better that we

i look around me, and i see no one. that’s when i know im a failure. or maybe, i wasnt meant to be a failure, everyone played a part in making me one. welcome to the new world, whereby only people...

cannot be stopped

because it was me. just because it was me, they assumed I didn’t want to go. why couldn’t it be like a slip of the mind like it really was. if it were someone else, another message would probably...

puking pastilles

been sick for the past 2 days, or should i say week. persistent fever and its driving me crazy. plus i’ve been vomiting yesterday and it sucks cause i havent been eating anything and all im puking...

je ne sais pas pourquoi

been trying to sleep early and wake up on time while juggling schoolwork. life’s been tough. the journey from home to school and then from school back home repeats itself every single day and it’s...

falling stars

honestly don’t know what to do now. I don’t like staying in hall. yet right now, I regret quitting fb and not applying for hall. I need the space. I want to get away. I’m tired from trying. I have...

if you could see me now

and the big guy up there decides that im still going strong, and not falling apart the way he planned for me to. so he decides to deal us with another blow. what did i do? what did we do? what the...

like a little prayer

15, the deciding year. thats the year when everything changed. that’s the year when I knew I want to move out when I had the financial capability. that’s the year I know what I want and what I...