Something for Calvin Three years ago, I sewed this cap and blanket from a pillow case. It was the pillow case Louie used when we were in the hospital to deliver Calvin. I remember sitting in my paren...
Over at Dandiewinks, I’ve shared several cards to honor the grief some of us feel on Mothers Day. Here’s a small preview of a couple of the them: There are also cards for those of you are...
Today is not my first Mothers Day… I became a mother four years ago, on the Tuesday before Thanksgiving, when I saw two lines that changed me forever. When I delivered my first baby, stillborn ...
Stephanie, mommy to heaven baby, Amelia Rose, is the artist behind Beyond Words Designs and does beautiful work that supports grieving parents, honors the babies we have lost, and celebrates life and...
It’s been 38 months since Calvin was born. I can’t believe it’s been over three years. Especially in the early days of grief, it was hard to imagine surviving. But here I am, a surv...
During my freshman year of college, Louie gave me a blue stuffed bunny that was wearing a knit Easter sweater. I named it Louie Bunny. Then, I started calling Louie Bunny. Then we both started callin...
This is a photo of Mama Sue from when she was younger and lived in Japan. We buried her this afternoon. We released balloons, sang a Japanese children’s song that she taught us when we were you...
Sometimes the words get so jumbled and mixed up with everything that you’re feeling and wanting to express that you need to distill it down into as few syllables as possible. This is for my pat...
For Calvin’s 3rd heavenly birthday, I asked Louie if he would do a guest post on my blog to share some of our story from his perspective. I’m glad I asked, and I’m glad he agreed, b...
Starting tomorrow, March 1st, Google Friend Connect will stop supporting blogs/sites that aren’t hosted on Blogger. What this means is those of you who are keeping updated via GFC won’t b...
This past Sunday was my 30th birthday. It wasn’t until last week when Louie I were talking about my birthday and he mentioned The big 3-0 that I realized how old I was turning. My response was,...
Since, I didn’t have that many entries on the In My Heart giveaways, I decided that all of you will get what you asked for . Hi-resolution name tag winners, please email me at cry...
It’s been a long time since I’ve updated specifically about Bumble Bee, who, as you must have gathered from the title of this post is a boy. We’ve named him Charlie. And there will ...
Dear Calvin, It’s your 35th month in heaven, and I can’t believe your 3rd heavenly birthday is just around the corner. I wanted to do something creative and design-y for today. So, I deci...
Dear Calvin, I am the furthest I have ever been in pregnancy, carrying your baby brother or sister. Today, I am 18 weeks and 3 days. I delivered you at 18 weeks and 1 day. Although you did not come &...
Dear Calvin, On Thursday, I had the NT scan with Bumble Bee. It was at the same place where I had my first ultrasounds with you, where I first saw and heard your heartbeat, where they told me they fo...
Dear Calvin, I had my first prenatal appointment with Bumble Bee on Wednesday. The nurse-midwife asked about my previous pregnancies, and when she heard me call you “he,” she asked what y...
In honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, Calvin’s Cupcakes is offering this free PAIL Cupcake for you to use for your baby/babies. Just click on the image to go to Calvin’s ...
First, thank you so much for all of your encouragement, support, thoughts, and prayers. We are so grateful and so overwhelmed by all the love that we’re receiving for us and our babies. Second,...
We’re going to see Bumble Bee again tomorrow afternoon, and I should be 6 weeks and 4 days along. This is around the time that we should be able to see the fetal pole and a heartbeat. And that ...
For the past 8 days, I’ve been sticking one of these capsules in me when I wake up in the morning and before I got to bed at night. I don’t like it. It’s uncomfortable and messy and...
Have you heard of Beryl Young’s Illuminate photographic healing class? It’s a 5-week course that combines creative photography and journaling for bereaved parents. She’s currently o...
I just wanted to let some of you sweet mommas know that I’m running behind on requests at Calvin’s Cupcakes. I’m sorry to miss some special days, but I’ve been sick (still am)...
14 hours after leaving Gulfport, and there’s just something about the crisp San Francisco air that let’s me know I’m home. I have stories to share and am a little behind on cupcakes...
I attended a “Walk to Remember” remembrance walk and ceremony in Clearwater with some of my BabyCenter GBJ girls, their husbands, and their rainbow babies. Part of it included putting flo...
Because I was so anxious and worried and nervous and scared and terrified that I might have an ectopic pregnancy that would burst while I was traveling to Florida, my nurse agreed to do a blood test ...
Our current home is between the hospital where I found out Calvin was no longer alive and delivered his still body from mine and the columbarium where his ashes will be inurned in a niche that is for...
One of the most surprising thing that happened after losing Calvin (and each of my babies) was finding friendships in unexpected places. I was amazed and uplifted by receiving compassion, encourageme...
The NaBloPoMo prompt for today is: Are you the oldest, youngest, middle or only child? Talk about siblings. {Photo credit: Ed Pingol Photography} I am the oldest of six. I have four sisters and one b...
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