I got an email from Google that my blog would be frozen in time if I didnt agree to sign in and upgrade or something by May 31... so at about 11:30 pm PST I finally logged in and everything seems sal...
Im sorry if I have abandoned my readers in the last few years. Bulimia is not a part of my life anymore. Its like a cancerous tumor has been cut out of my body.Im not perfect and I still have eating ...
What if you woke up one day, and your bulimia was gone?What would you do with your life?How would you fill your days?I see so many comments still from those of you who are suffering. Bulimia is a con...
I can't believe I'm writing these words... Since November 2008, the soul-sucking disease known as bulimia nervosa has not been a part of my life.I wish I could describe to you the elation I feel each...
I'm working on my book proposal and query... if anyone knows a great literary agent, please let me know. I've picked a few I am going to send my query to but would love some suggestions.Life is amazi...
I'm free from the evil soul-sucking cancer known as bulimia.I can't remember the last time I threw up. I've had a few spit ups ("productive burps" in LapBand talk) but throwing up is no longer a part...
I am doing very well, still adjusting to this band. I had my first fill (tightening) on Thursday. Since then I've only been able to eat a small amount of food slowly. It's truly a different world for...
I got my LAP-BAND almost three weeks ago. I've lost 20 lbs in one month, which includes the pre-op diet for two weeks.The pre-op diet was hell. I was starving and could eat only 750 calories a day. I...
Why am I unhappy?I don't just mean now, with my stress and pre-op diet and all. I mean for years and years I have never truly been happy. Why? Because I'm starving for love.Three times in my life I h...
I started my two-week pre-op diet Saturday. I am supposed to lose 5 percent of my body weight by eating about 800-900 calories a day. The first two days were OK but today I was so, so, hungry. I didn...
Guess who is getting Lap Band surgery in three weeks... :-) MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEI can't effing believe it. I'm so excited. I've been working on this seriously for the past month or so, and ever...
It seems like I every time I hit "rock bottom," I bounce. I vow to get better and I have a surge of improvement, only to eventually fall back on my crappy habits.I am actually doing better for real. ...
The past few weeks have been so incredibly hard. I committed myself to changing my life and working my ass off. I'm working two jobs and taking four classes. So I CANNOT stay up late because I cannot...
I'm doing well, how about that?I'm very very tired of struggling through things. Like I wrote before, the easy outs are no longer working for me in any way. It is time I put my intelligence to good u...
My birthday is in a few days. 32 years old. Wow. I'm so old.There is one good thing about getting older. I'm getting more mature. I don't know what happened, but suddenly I feel like doing the things...
I'm growing up. I've made a few smart decisions this week and suddenly I feel much older and wiser. it's soooo late, I can barely keep my eyes open or think straight, but I just feel so positive and ...
I think I'm going to do a juice fast... I feel like crap after eating so much crap. I guess I will do my standard apple juice fast for three days. I just feel nasty right now. I need to stop drinking...
well four of them anyway.After this terrible weekend of out of control eating, I took Prozac again for the first time in a week or so, full dose. Within 24 hours everything was "normal" - I had no de...
I can't stop eating... I'm constantly hungry. I think I will soon be 300 lbs. Someone shoot me (or harpoon me).Of course I haven't been taking the Prozac to control the hunger. I hate this disease or...
Why do I think the Lap-Band will take all my problems away? I guess I am tired of being hungry all the time. I really am hungry all the time. Sometimes I can't sleep at night because my stomach hurts...
I've been doing well lately with eating, thanks to the Prozac. However I haven't been exercising over the past few weeks because my left foot has really been hurting... well guess what - it's fractur...
Well I am improving but it's not quite as easy as I imagine it will be. After exercising the first few days last week I didn't do anything! I ate OK I suppose but I've had a few slipups. I know it's ...
I exercised again on Tuesday - I walked and rode the bike. I also did 10 minutes on the elliptical, but my back didn't feel too good afterward and I think it could be from that. My back has been pain...
Already I feel better and more upbeat emotionally. My feet are killing me with blisters... ouch.... and I have shin splints just from walking! I used to get them when I ran but now it's just from wal...
Well here I go again: I'm starting today to eat healthy and exercise. This is probably my 10,000 attempt at this but what else can I do? I am massive, and I don't mean that in a delusional eating dis...
I haven't been doing my best... Why is it I keep forgetting that binging is a waste of time and harmful to my goal of losing weight? I keep excusing this behavior and saying I'll stop tomorrow, but t...
I'm stuckI can't stop eatingI'm getting fatter and fatter...I think I have diabetes too. I've never been so fat, I've never been so unhealthy, I've never felt so sick.Yet I still can't stop.I was goi...
Well I finally have some news to post. I haven't posted because I haven't really had any updates. Sorry for sucking.The news is that I exercised! Really for the first time since my surgery... three m...
to have a life that does not revolve around your weight and food? What do those people think about?I didn't post my bulimic hell yet. I will soon. It was truly terrible.I have never been so fat in my...
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