I love this little guy. Sometimes, I imagine that this is what the voice of Ana would look like, personified. :)Take care, my beauties. Do whatever you have to do to feel well. :)
Thanks for the love, my friends. Your courage, honesty, and encouragement are inspiration to my life.Ive only read thru maybe the first 100 or so comments from the 1300 that have to be reviewed and e...
Showbiz is the worlds best corset. It just keeps squeezing you until you cant breathe anymore.
Thinspo is my porn.
After a very stressful few weeks, and a very naughty weekend, I am feeling quite... (how shall we say) unqualified to fit into my skinny jeans this week.So, now that I feel like a lot of the heat has...
I've been reading Marya's book again. The last time I read it, it triggered me into a summer of long-term fasts (lost 20 pounds in 3 months), so I'm wondering what will happen to me now that "I've be...
Anorexic Identical Twins Get Intervention"I'd rather starve than be fat," says 22-year-old Julia. But at 5-foot-7-inches and 95 lbs., the frail girl is compared by her Polish parents to survivors of ...
What did I learn during my time in "recovery"? I like to thoroughly examine both sides of a story before making my own judgement. I know what Ana Bella is going through, why she thinks the way she do...
Can I just vent for a fucking moment?I was not allowed to leave my recovery program until I was a "healthy" 120 lbs.Tonight, the "Biggest Loser" was awarded $250,000 for being 117 lbs.What the FUCK i...
I've gotten down to eating only 2 meals a day (breakfast and dinner), and I've been allowed to go back to the gym three or four times a week. I'm down 6 pounds.It's not ana, but at least it's in the ...
I've missed you guys every day. I never stopped thinking about getting back to this blog.In mid-November I was invited to a "birthday party" that turned out to be an intervention. I was sent home for...
I'm so keyed up right now, I'm fucking delirious. But not in a positive way. If I had a nickel for every time I've said the word "fuck" in the past six hours... I don't know, maybe it's just from a d...
This weekend's three-day fast (the first one I've done in about a year) was a huge success. I actually felt like I was starting to go a little crazy off of the pure euphoria. There is no other way to...
LOVE to all my commenters.
Let's just say I hate myself right now.Two days on the set, two days I expected to fast, and two days failed. My greatest weakness is wanting to please my directors, not raise any eyebrows, not draw ...
One of the recent comments asked how to resist cravings. Well, my first reaction is to shiver: someone with legitimate anorexia doesn't actually get cravings for food. We get cravings for exercise, f...
Yesterday had ups and downs. But after the entire weekend, I'm down two pounds. woo. I'm not thoroughly excited, because I wish it had been five. But at least I'm down.The film festival was pretty in...
Martha Stewart just made a funny: One of her guests had baked something and offered it to her asking if she was hungry. As she took a greedy bite she said, "Oh yes! I only had a salad for lunch... ye...
Been doing ok this week, but it's been tough because I've been working so much. Keeping exact track is damned-near impossible, but I've been able to avoid food entirely for about 36 hours at a time b...
Books are good for body as well as brainby Roger Sinasohn Oct 7th 2008 1:00PMIt's important for kids to read in order to become well-rounded, knowledgeable adults and positive members of society. It ...
Just a quick note because I'm working like a fucking beast this weekend.I didn't get to do the saltwater flush on Wednesday... I just ran out of time. But I did manage to eat nothing, and only consum...
“Unless you faint, puke, or die, KEEP WALKING!”– Jillian Michaels, The Biggest Loser, NBCI love this fucking firecracker of a woman! I watch this show while I'm on the cardio machines at the gym, and...
Desperate times call for desperate measures.This morning, I'm still five lbs away from my goal weight for Wednesday's promo appearance for my movie. Restricted all weekend, and got in some killer car...
Been reading over some of my own old posts. Damn... I forgot how much fun it was to starve and fast with ya'll!I haven't written a single haiku since the last time I was "Ana." I miss that.Wow, lots ...
Yesterday's true fast gave me 2 pounds off. But overall, I realize that I've only lost five pounds this month. This is unacceptable, especially when I wanted to be another five pounds lighter by next...
Back up that one pound again today. Figures.Got a good whiplash from a Danish skinny today in the comments. Thanks, lovey, I needed that.Damn noreaster making the weather depressing here, so I'm not ...
Thank God I'm back to work finally! BUT, it comes with a price.I had to have lunch on-set today with my cast/crew. I HATE catered craft services!! And P.A.'s who think you're so frail and thin that y...
Yes, I was finally able to return to the gym last night. 8 miles. Woot!Yet somehow, I'm another pound UP today. Damnit. I did eat all my 438-calories yesterday though, spaced out evenly through the d...
The new counter just rolled over 10,000 views. In 20 days.Ya'll fucking ROCK!
Gained back 1 lb. today. Root.Ok, so I confess. I haven't been eating the entire 438 cals most days while I've been sick. I been having my 1/2 cup of fat-free cottage cheese (80 cals) for breakfast, ...
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