thats pointless.(Have a good weekend. Back on Monday.)
and waiting
Waiting,
Fear is a doozy.(Have a fearless weekend. Back on Monday.)
There is nothing to fear but fear.
What doesnt kill you can make you stronger (if you let it).
Suddenly, cliches are making sense...(That cant be good, can it?)Like...
There is no point crying over spilled anything.
none of it can kill me!
alllllllll the stuff that scares me...or, I should say, none of it...
I am just now realizing, as though it werent true all along, that the bottom-line end-of-the-day absolute truth is...
I mean, whats the worst that can happen if I try something new?!
...so what?! (More on Monday. Have a very nice weekend.)
I just got back from a challenging trip. It seems that when I accept that some things are beyond my control, and when I am open to change and am willing to loosen my grip on my sense of comfort,...
I also found her a possible apartment.(Have a possibility-filled weekend! Back here on Monday.)
I find that confusing.(New not-at-all-confusing shop illustration here.)
She knows exactly what she needs to be comfortable. But shes not really happy.I dont know what I need to be comfortable. But I am happy.
Im trying to convince my mom to move here. She is worried that she wont be comfortable.
But Im finding that Im happier (at the moment) making myself a little uncomfortable.
And thats sort of uncomfortable. Redefining who you are is a bit uncomfortable.
What I am comfortable and uncomfortable with is changing.
I am scared to be out there. I am scared to have an audience. I am scared I wont have an audience.I am scared to care and try and to fail.I am scared to not try.I am scared.
I, myself, had have scares.
Today I looked up at a building, and admired how the sun lit up one side. Then I noticed the people...hanging against the side. The window-washers. I wondered what scares them.
So, Im scared to waste any time being scared to do things. I find myself feeling that there is not enough time for scared.
(And I feel really self-conscious and awkward and sad and grateful to say that I can find a positive.)(Have a positive weekend. Back on Monday.)(Updated illustration went up yesterday here.)
The biggest change, the one that I sort of like, is...well...the whole experience scared me into trying to be a little less scared.
But back here tomorrow. In the meantime, new stuff should be going up over here today. Errrr, make that, today.
everything looked, and felt, and seemed different. And I felt myself changing a little bit.And now, slowly, gradually, Im feeling that the change in me...is a good thing.
all around...
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