London has been so good to me. Its different from Ecuador, Chile, Korea, and Spain... different in many ways of course, but the most meaningful is that I dont have to experience this while I a...
What I just realized is that theres all different kinds of spoiled brats. Theyre not all typically the richy rich types that wear designer brands and spend their money unwisely. They can be the count...
Maybe its because Ive spent the last months (since July) traveling that I feel so disconnected right now. Or it could be that Im so worried that Im frozen in fear that I wont find something for post ...
Sometimes, I feel like Xanga made everything worse. Well, my decision to write on it to be more specific. I was opposed to writing anything on it when I first opened an account (because xanger was th...
"boys will be strong... boysll soldier on... but boysll be gone... without warmth from a womans good, good heart." (John Mayer- Daughters) Theres this guy at work named Jorge whom I like to p...
post grad plans. i keep getting this feeling like there might be something better.. something i just have to wait it out for. im scared to know what i want... i decided to apply for a masters in soci...
Oh and my new years res is to work on character rather than obsessing over my job/career stuff which will work itself out anyway thanks to Gods help.
http://christin0.xanga.com/738 257964/new-year-and-my-birthda y/ That was last years reflections, hopes, and learnings. I was writing a recap of 2011 but the browser crashed and xanga doesnt sav...
Ive been wanting to update but I never get around to it. It feels like I just dont have enough space or time here. I need more privacy and space. But these are the thoughts that have been going on in...
I used to love to hate. When there´s a person that everyone in a group doesn´t like, I was never the one to avoid the hating. I´ve participated in gossip too even though I know goss...
The opposite of love is fear. Negativity and hatred are inherent to fear, just like freedom is inherent to love. Love what is good, what is right. Sometimes it doesn´t matter what I want. It re...
K here are the problems. 1. Feeling like I may offend someone. I grew up in a house where I wasn´t allowed to "rock the boat" codependencey/BPD etc. etc. Serious repercussions if I did....
With the exceptance of the 5 days in NY (which set me back like 3 weeks to recover) I´ve been away for about 5 months. The last time I was away for that long was last year but that year was roc...
This is a good read. http://thetheologianscafe.xang a.com/756264301/dan-on-friends hip Lots of things have changed. I realized that I expect things to happen a certain way all the time. And that rigid,...
I have 5 people on my "close friends" list on fb- my siblings, kyle, foon and Cardoso. Aside from family, these are the only ones that truly try to help me in my times of need... or at least ...
We learn a lot about the inner world and escaping reality through fantasy. It´s funny cuz I never learned of this theme/concept til I was older and after/while I had lived through it all. I had...
There is an old parable regarding an older Cherokee man teaching his grandson about life. He tells the boy, “A fight is going on inside me. It is a fight between two wolves. One is evil, ...
Its an illusion. Weeks of freedom and bliss. I realized the program is half over. Im frightened again. "Youre a monster!" ~gingerbread man in shrek Era como un femme fatal + Anna Karenina + A...
"There is a purity in doing a thing for the first time that can never return. When we learn that people like a certain thing we do, we can never be sure why we do that thing again. Ar...
I´m finding myself. The more time abroad, the more distance, the less contact, the more confidence, the more joyfulness, the less anxiousness and fear of life. I can´t ...
If I could do anything in the world, I would express myself. Quiero mi propia voz. Pero no sale, no sale... Es algo del alma. Algo que me había sido afectándome&n bsp;po...
So I had supposedly asked my friend the same question like 3 times within a span of a few minutes. I had no recollection of it though. I was off in another world when he had answered, I guess. ...
As I heal and enter the stage of being rebuilt/reclaiming identity, I realize that there are still some areas that are unresolved. Every time I get better, I realize something new, another level of h...
It´s like being little and receiving a new coloring book only to find out that someone else had already colored everything in already.
I´m trying to figure out what I like to know who I am in order to know what decisions to make in my life. Much of what I like and my thoughts have been clouded by the people in my life who I ga...
Some days are just so hard. I want to overcome insecurities, feelings of being invalid, and shame. I want to forget bad memories. I really really really want to forget them. Or somehow let them go th...
Some people suggest that I should write and I had wanted to be an author when I was 10 (cuz I like to read). But I can´t because there has to be a nonchalantness when you write. An indirectness...
I feel so disconnected here. I´m in a land where nobody, not even one, person knew about me. In Chile it was different ´cause there was someone who knew me before. With internet problems ...
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A lot of people knew me as "Staceys sister" when I was young. I realized in Korea that Im never gonna be anyone else but myself and I have to accept that. It comes with the disappointment tha...
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