She Whispered, "Write."

I suppose you could say I follow my instincts. My mother always told me to listen to my inner voice, to trust my intuition. And I have wholeheartedly since childhood. Or since I was perceptive enough to understand my inner self. That I actually had one, that is. She also told me to "never leave a drink unattended, experiment with ouija boards, or dabble in dungeons and dragons," my mother. Pretty random, right? But the point of all this talk leads simply to the fact that my inner voice was telling me I needed to make time for myself, to stop over-analyzing our situation, primarily Aksels autism, and to take active control of my wellbeing. Because at Christmas, I was a mess... a sobbing, contemplative mess. So, I did take control. Or have, rather. And resulting, its been two plus months since Ive written one creative word. Dont misunderstand though, its not for want, or love of writing, that I stopped, its just because my person, my inner voice said, "rest." But today, she whispered, "write." Out of nowhere. So, I am. And I respect her, my inner voice. Because shes comprised of all the women before me. (More on this later.) All said, and two months later, Im happy again! Not to mention, 10 pounds lighter. And my mind, most important, is alive. Oh, and Aksels beginning to talk, saying simple words like "apple" and "hat." Ten weeks ago, I was afraid he never would! By the way, we love his team of therapists! Theyre incredible! And my marriage, despite the challenges in past months, is stronger than ever... most of the time. We actually believe that autism is a blessing... now. Im just happy to be writing again! PS - I really appreciate the notes and emails Ive received over the last few weeks. And despite my silence, theyve helped so much!