refocus.

Just over three weeks till baby B is due – and just under 2 weeks into my leave (earlier than planned thanks to the lovely world of retail). Although physically my body is thanking me, mentally I feel a bit adrift. I have spent so many years of my life with the majority of my weekday hours taken up with school, work, or (during college) both that now when I’m not doing either, I’m not sure quite what to do.

Although currently my feet do bear a resemblance to marshmallows (nice, right?) I’m certainly not sitting around with my feet up eating bonbons. I clean and catch up on laundry. I walk the dog earlier in the day when I still have the energy for it. Items on the to-do list that have suffered my procrastination for far too long are finally getting checked off. What I really want do is help with painting the house now that the wallpaper is gone but that of course is off limits.

Each day when Zack is done with work, I find myself listing all the things I accomplished (big & small). He is such a good sport and humors me, listening when I tell him about reorganizing a closet or the fifth trip to Target I’ve made this week. I didnt even realize I was doing it at first – its like I am trying to prove (to myself) I’m still productive even though I’m not working.

I know once baby B gets here I will have more than enough to occupy my time and we will be adjusting to a whole new rythm of life. In the meantime, I’ll read a book, finish all those thank you’s for lovely shower gifts, and try to enjoy the restful moments while I can! Oh – and I’ll also try to stop reciting the details of my trips to Target to Zack. Even when I really want to.