Looking back at 2017
I’ve not always enjoyed having a birthday that was so close to Christmas. Hint: most of the time we were out of school for my birthday which usually would be great, but that’s how I saw people and got anything for my birthday (other than from family), so if you were out of school most people forgot about it.
But, now I thoroughly enjoy it because it prolongs that year just a bit for me. Most of my new year’s resolutions don’t start until after my birthday because you know, you want to eat cake!
So, 2017 wasn’t really a great year for lots of people, and it wasn’t a stellar year for me though it had highlights.
Let me first tell you about the highlights:
- We bought a home. We moved to the Augusta, GA area and were able to buy a home. We had owned a home before but not since living in ATL, and now we can get settled. I like being settled (as long as I get to travel).
- I was asked to do many cool lettering projects including a styled shoot which was published twice (here and here) and to letter t-shirts for a concert tour/album release.
- I surpassed my reading goal.
Ok, but really, 40 was not my favorite year.
I had to start again, again. Building community at 40 is hard. And ATL was hard enough as it was. When you are 10-20 years older than most of the people in your same creative field, its difficult to feel like you fit in. Social media doesn’t always help, but it also has been good to build community.
Fear was the word that permeated 40/2017. Insecurity in my health (colitis flare ups, autoimmune diagnosis, weight gain). Insecurity in my relationship with Christ. Fear of failure as a wife and a mom. Fear of how my boys will turn out. Fear of not being liked. Not in a 13 sorta of way, but in a 40 sort of way. Fear of never being good enough to measure up to anything. Fear of always being mediocre at everything I do. Never excelling at anything. Fear of loss: both my grandfather and my mom have been in the hospital and just sick in the last few months.
So, when people ask me what I want for 2018 and 41: just please be better than last year.
For 2018: Peace is my word of the year. I want peace in my relationship with Christ. I want peace in not-striving. I want peace in our home. I want peace in my body.
My verse for this year you will find above:
Since God created the world and everything in it is upheld by his words and his power – there should be no chaos in it – only peace.