Just at that point
So much in my life keeps changing, I’m changing as a person, the people around me are changing, and things like school are causing changes that I can’t help but anticipate anymore. I’m actually a weird mix of excited, scared and paranoid. You can’t really speculate the future but I’m all kerfuffled about now. Idk, man I’m really just at peace right now.
2 weeks healed, thankfully my breakout was only two little pimples that are now healing. Maybe I used too much Aquaphor?
Something really took a hold of me when I say change. I went and started on my tattoo journey. I do plan on getting many more pieces, including a stag (possibly water color style) on my right arm. I took some inspiration for the style off a tattoo I saw on Tumblr, but mostly the style of it. The line-art was done in a beautiful story-book style and so I asked my artist to do something similar. I kept with the fox theme because it felt appropriate. Foxes have a very strange, mysterious, tricky, fun nature both in the western and eastern cultures. I’m really taking a shine to that right now and I feel like it speaks volumes right now.
Funny story about my artist too, he ended up being someone I had gone to school with! During my sketch he looked up and said, “I went to school with you.” I asked for his real name, (cause I had been addressing him as his artist handle) and I was like, “Ermagerd. The past and the present keep mixing up in weird ways. ” It totally threw me for a loop, I was so amused and tickled. I was able to watch him develop as an artist from childhood and then suddenly re-emerge as a tattoo artist as an adult.
I ended up moving back home after a stint with Richard that left us agreeing to separate indefinitely. This is going to be good, I can feel like. I really was getting stifled and this is just going to be an opportunity to grow and develop more on my own now that I’ve been locked up for 5 years in what was at least a good relationship. Im not really sure where it stands with myself right now, I’m just happy to be able to go home every day and focus on me a little bit more and what I’m going to be around in the next 5 years. It’s such a weird elated feeling!?!?! IM SO CONFUSED AND CLARIFIED AT THE SAME TIME.
The carpets are original… It’s seen so much abuse in its 18 years. I really wanna rip it up and lay down wood since we have extra from doing the rest of the house years ago, but that’s a DIY I’m not sure Im up to.
I ended up in the rooms I was in at age 6 and age 13-18. Pretty…different and nostalgic in a way. I bought myself some new furniture since I left everything at the apartment aside from my bed and two work stations. Great find on craigslist. The bedroom set was $160 great condition for a desk with hutch, a dresser with mirror, vanity with stool and unused mattress new in the bag.
The bedroom set is actually nearly as old as I am and it’s in such great condition I can’t even believe it. I suppose others take care of their furniture too though.
Bought an Expedit tv stand and I am having a love/hate relationship with it. For some reason halfway through it stopped going together smoothly. I ended up breaking two of the bottom shelves and having to use gorilla glue to keep it from getting any worse. (That icky looking yellow stuff you see on two of the panels in the photo. A dremel will file it down but until then it looks gross). I bought it since I splurged even further and bought myself my own TV. Since it was on sale for a good price, I got a Samsung 51″ plasma HDTV in 1080p. It’s got really rich color, very true blacks and it’s color is warm which I prefer.
Last but not least, I bought the amoire in the corner for $100. It has some water damage to bottom (perhaps from a flood in the house?) but it’s a gorgeous piece that matched the bedroom set to a tee. The white wash was not even a smidge off in tone. It’s like I was meant to have it. I’m using it to store all my lolita accessories, wigs, etc. It’s just adorable.
Well, that’s it. I better get back to my research papers. … I rarely sleep at night this semester…I traded from am to noc shift and now I regret it.
