Take One Down, Pass It Around

Life is funny.

There is no doubt that Wednesday was a bad day for me and little did I know things were about to get more interesting.

That afternoon as I was waiting for Chad to come home I received a call from my family doctor letting me know he had received the test results from the PAP test I had in November and would like me to come in to discuss them. He had an opening available the next day if I wanted. Sweet Mother of Mercy, what now? Without a doubt this phone call sent my panic senses into over load. The over worrier that I used to be was coming back with a vengeance. I have been called back before for weird PAP test results but this was all a bit much for me. At least I would be able to ask him about my lump biopsy as he had also received a copy of the results.

Then Thursday morning I received a call from the hospital letting me know they were cancelling my second biopsy scheduled for the next day and postponing it for the end of the month. Are you kidding me? I just want this to be over with and you guys are dragging it out? UGH.

Thankfully my family doctor is wonderful. He rightfully assumed I would be freaking out about all this and explained everything very clearly.

My lump biopsy came back negative so there was nothing to worry about there, thank God!

With regards to my calcium deposit biopsy being postponed, he said I shouldn’t worry about it and to ask my surgeon if he could phone the hospital to try and schedule it sooner as he had more pull with the hospital.

As for my PAP test, some of the cells tested came back as “abnormal” so he is going to schedule an appointment for me to get a colposcopy which is basically a fancy PAP test.

This was a lot of information to take in, but he stressed to me that I shouldn’t worry. There was nothing we could do about the biopsy right now so I’ve put it out of my mind. Hopefully the colposcopy shows nothing serious, but even if it does some fairly simple procedures can rectify the situation. I was actually talking to Matteo’s nurse about this and she went through a similar situation and had quite a few colposcopies done so I don’t feel so scared about it.

So one thing has been taken off the table and one new thing has been added to the table, but I don’t feel as worried about it as I did earlier in the week. I know that everything in life happens for a reason and that God has a plan for me but sometimes life just gets so overwhelming that I can’t help but worry and stress and freak out.