Fisher’s Light (Fisher’s Light #1), by Tara Sivec ★★★
I guess this is it, huh? After fourteen years together, starting a life of our own on this island, five deployments and countless letters I’ve written you through it all, I finally go out to the mailbox and see something I’ve always dreamed of: an envelope with your handwriting on it. For one moment, I actually thought you’d changed your mind, that all the awful things you said to me were just your way of coping after everything you’d been through. I was still here, Fisher. I was still here, holding my breath, waiting for you to come back even though you told me you never would. You always said you’d find your way back to me. Out of all the lies you’ve told me, this one hurts the most.
Enclosed you will find the signed divorce papers, as requested.
I hope you find what you’re looking for. I’m sorry it wasn’t me.
To get the ending they want, Lucy and Fisher will have to go back to the beginning. Through the good and the bad, they’ll be reminded of why they always made their way back to each other, and why this time, one way or another, it will be the last time.
3.5 Stars for Fisher & Lucy.
Ok, is it me?? This keeps happening lately. Everyone loves a book, so I dive in and it just doesn’t float my boat.
Fisher’s Light is the story of a broken, war veteran, suffering from a serious case of PTSD and his high school sweetheart. Now, usually I love a good war-hero romance!! I have so much respect for the men that fight for our countries and the women who wait for them at home, that anything related to their lives fascinates me and I’m almost guaranteed to fall head-over-heels in love.
“You are always the light in my darkness. You’re the reason I’m alive, you’re the reason I’m here and you’re the reason I breathe, every day.”
But Fisher’s Light just didn’t hit the right spot. I found myself skipping forward, skimming huge chunks of the book, getting annoyed with the flashbacks and just not connecting with the story. I was actually wanting to get it finished so that I could move on to my next read.
Lucy and Fisher fell in love in high school and were married when they were young. Fisher spent most of their marriage at war and Lucy was 100% devoted to waiting for him to come home and loving and healing him when he was with her. Until his inner wounds were beyond healing anymore and Lucy and Fisher’s marriage is torn apart.
Unlike most romance novels we read, this book begins after Lucy and Fisher are married. They have already been together for years and endured a huge amount of hardship and struggle, due to Fisher’s job. I was really intrigued by that. But for whatever reason, I just didn’t engage with Lucy or Fisher.
“You make everything perfect, Lucy. You’re my light and my life and all I need is your love to guide me home, no matter where I go.”
I kind of felt like all the good stuff, all the pain and heartache had already happened, and although we were treated to flashbacks to their past, it just didn’t feel the same. Yes, my brain understood that Fisher went through an awful time, but still I didn’t feel that connection and my heart remained unmoved. So many people mentioned the fact that this book had them bawling like a baby. I couldn’t even have squeezed a tear out if I’d really strained. I just didn’t feel any emotion. Nada!
I wonder if I would have felt differently had the author told their story from beginning to end. But then, perhaps it would have been too long. Maybe a series would have been a better option. I don’t know. All I know is that, as it is, it didn’t do it for me.
“How many people get a second chance at love with the only person they’ve ever held in their heart?”
And then in the last ten percent of the book, I just felt like the author went a little crazy with the drama and it made my head spin. It was unrealistic and manic and… *face palm* I felt like everybody just needed to take a breath and re-group. I just couldn’t understand where on earth the author was headed with it all. It was like I’d suddenly been flung into a whole different story.
In addition to that, some of the things that happened felt totally unnecessary and just included in an attempt to try and drag more emotion from the reader. Tbh, it just pissed me off.