I will scatter on the floor

photos via google search and justmissedus blog I just have to paint this painting where is a girl blowing up a bubble gum. It kills me how uncreative I am, it kills me how things are right now. All...

Daddys girl

via google search & Finland winter 2012

There was none picture of us

Sagres, Portugal 2013 March When I think about it, how much you try to make it look like we are not. I mentioned several times how I wish to have something left to keep. But after we came back home...

DEATH

I am so sorry, so sorry, for everything.

Lean against, I don't know what I feel

September 2012 North of Spain I'm going on a small vacation to Portugal and Spain. The others have been there already for almost three weeks. The weather there, a lot of rain, but at least there is...

Juice me

photos via tumblr & Robin So often I would like to get a tape and recorder, speak out loud silently, whispering, the secrets and shadows. Show how it feels. Does anything really matter, when one...

Fake the happyness

I wish I could find a way to return as the way I used to be, and it scares me how close I am to that old me some nights with new people we are laughing, running and joking so much and I hate that I...

Not as beautiful as they used to be

I think my photo editing skills have gotten a little rusty. So scared of relaxing and believing that there might be soon relief. What if this was not enough and something more bad could happen. I'm...

The sunrise sliding through a window

One morning I decided not to be sad anymore and forget and forget and I did, and then I smiled, smiled a week and found new people. I'm still stuck with all of his and it still makes me cry. But...

It is a gift

Another ugly

I'm still trying. I should by softer pencils but I'm really short with money. My first pay comes in the end of next month and I'm pretty much screwed. However I will go tomorrow to develop 2 films...

Things I have learned

When I've been called a naive girl, I didn't think it could happen to me. That someone could get so close to me and hurt mewith his touch when he can't control his anger anymore. And what I do now,...

I wanted to insult you

So I'm still just sketching powerlessly trying to find out how to draw again girls that look like whores and have ugly faces, my eyes are damaged

Don't, please no more

The Path

It's already a new year. And I haven't accomplished anything so far. Or maybe a lake full of tears is one thing that could be counted. Remarkably I understand now, that I need to write my thoughts...

Why are we still fighting

Beauty lies in the sun rays beneath the surface love saves Darkness invades the maze tears break free they soak her skin waiting for the light to dry them Fears sleep in each one of us growing old...

He follows me around and sleeps in my bed

Riwalin, December 2012 My roommates cat, he never scratched me. I'm getting better even the days are getting shorter and darker. St. Nikolas day came and so did the first snow here. I passed out...

You said you would come soon but it takes so long

Photos via Aëla & unknown

Blindside

Szczecin postbank on September Maybe I should for once try to be happy if I can. I finally found a wind proofed bomber jacket that is not oversize. My friends at work would like to take me out if I...

The kids are crying upstairs

Some of my favorite photos from 2011 June-July Eurotrip

He loses me

Photos via wikipedia "viktoria-luise-platz" & my hometown "Kuhmola" Yesterday friend of mine woke me up again, she said all the right words. What can I do when the situation gets harder and my head...

Why the sudden change

Kurfürstenstraße 57 How ironic, prostitutes sell themselves on a street where is three churches and this beautiful house. My life turned simple. I got a job from a bar now. My days are filled with...

My head is a total mess anger and hate flowing to all directions and I'm locked inside, damaged oh wish someone would help me

Karma of fucking over a good girl is the bitch you end up with

photos via South-West of France in September and fb

I want to ask you something. Do you know what you want? What is desirable? What do you think is happiness? And, do you want to ask me anything?

Let us speak until we shout

photos via google src "frozen" I'm beginning to be so tired of holding my true emotions back. Holding my mouth, being silent when feeling hurt, not telling the truth. I just wish I could be so...

Those sweet sounds of silence

Somewhere on a field in France Finally the day when it stopped raining. I cleaned the floor and washed my self. A friend told me to follow my heart like Pocahontas, choose my river. My hands around...

Pale but I thought she got tanned

Back from Spain and the crazy roadtrip back to Berlin New life, feels unreal, small steps forward I made a dress from second hand polyester curtains when I was in Finland this month Maybe me and my...

Girls know better

photo via "vintage Victorian Secret models"

Take a moment

photos via girlswithabs