The Big Picture

A daughter is a mother's gender partner, her closest ally in the family confederacy, an extension of her self. And mothers are their daughters' role model, their biological and emotional road map, the arbiter of all their relationships.

-- Victoria Secunda

I rarely and with great reluctance post pictures of myself. Partially because I have no one to take them, but also because I am embarrassed. I'm not sure if its a self esteem issue, or that I don't like the way I look in photos (does anyone really?).
My sister is extremely photogenic. She does not take a bad picture, ever. I feel like every picture of me is bad. They don't look like me, to me, if that makes sense. And I see it in Lola too... she looks so different in pictures than in life. It might be because a 2 dimensional small image can't capture her huge 3D personality.
I remember reading that if you look into the mirror you receive direct feedback and adjust your mimics and the looking angle until you look good to yourself. After a while you get used to this technique of looking and you start to believe that you actually look like the "mirror - you" all the time, which clearly is not the case.
And I realized, that's a selfish view. The world needs more pictures of me. Just kidding! But really this is all for her, in my mind, to someday look back and be able to read like a journal of our life together. And what would it be without pictures? I wish I had many more pictures of my mom at my age.
I'm going to try to be better about it. It still makes me extremely uncomfortable (and like, look at the expression on my face in that picture. Literally the only one where I didn't look like a moron). But accept, grow, move on is my mantra this year.
Anyone else have any issues with photos of themselves?