one year old, and completely wiser too.

it's been one year since my sweet precious mia passed on.

i remember that day like it was yesterday. mia had been throwing up throughout the night,. i took her into the vet and had every test feasible done. the vet said to take her home and if things got worse to call her. i did as i was told, took my baby home and she kept getting worse. i held her closely as i could feel my poor sweet baby get worse and worse. i had the most intense feeling this was going to be the last time i would hold her her so close. i knew she was dying, and to hold your baby knowing they are dying, is the worst possible feeling ever.

when the vet finally called me back i took her in for hospitalization, obviously, it didn't do much good. mia's intestines had ruptured and there was no saving her. i remember the feeling of complete loss over whelm me. i was at work and the only thing that i had to comfort me was my twin. she was there 100% of the way. since cute guy wasn't much help during all my decision making, if it wasn't for her i don't think i would have made it.

i did what i knew to be best and was lucky to have such an amazing vet who was open and honest with me during the entire process. she saved both me and mia from an immense amount of pain. i still can't believe its been a year since she passed, but i know without a doubt in my heart she is in the right place and the time she spent with me was to teach me a lesson. that i can love; that i can lose and still live life. i've never had someone close to me die and i think this lesson was to teach me that i can survive it. as hard as it was to lose her, it still helped me learn.

mia will forever be in my heart, my soul, my mind and my life. i may have new pups now, but neither of them will ever replace my sweet mia. i truly cannot put into words what mia did for me. physically, mentally or emotionally. she will forever be a sweet reminder that it is better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all.

you are missed my sweet girl and always will be.