Why I can't stand behind my sisters regarding Ordain Women...

Every so often I talk about my faith on my blog. I know a lot of you who read here might not care for these types of posts, but this blog has always been my space for my interests, passions, and thoughts. So please disregard this if talking religion isn't your thing...
Growing up I have always questioned. My father and I used to stay up into the wee hours of the morning discussing faith, the universe and the eternities. I am sure we would have stayed up all night long if it hadn't been for my mother eventually making us go to bed. Being raised Mormon added a lot of questions to my conversations with my father. I have never been the type to blindly follow anything or anyone. If I don't know why I am doing something, or if I don't have a strong conviction of it, it is difficult for me practice something let alone believe in it. Oh how I have tested the waters and my faith.
Being a woman in the LDS Church you often get met with several remarks. I must not have a mind of my own, how can I be apart of my Church that treats women so badly? I have often wondered what Church these people are talking about? Over the last year we have seen women in the Church come forward upset. My heart does go out to them, but to be perfectly honest I can't relate. Oh yes, I agree there are many things I think the Church could improve upon. We as an organization are far from perfect. I can empathize with a lot of what my sisters in the Church say, and we could go into a deep discussion about those I am sure... yet I can't wrap my mind around the Ordain Women "movement" if you will.
I consider myself a feminist. Yet with that said I can acknowledge that there will always be differences between men and women. Heck, there are such vast differences between us women, how could I expect all of us to be the same? I think that is the problem here. People are so set on things being equal when I think what they really want is everything to be identical. I am all for equality when it comes to human rights, but there are grey areas where things just never will be equal or shall I say be identical. There is a reason they often separate women and men in sports. It isn't that there can't be women who are just as fast and strong as men, but that more often than not, a man is just genetically going to be bigger and stronger than a woman.
Ordain Woman believe there is not gender equality in the Church. Like I said, I have some opinions on things we could do better. In fact, I have an ever growing list of things we could be doing differently and most of them derive from our behavior and the culture that has grown and taken over our congregations. Yet, when it comes to doctrine and the core beliefs of the Church, I can't get on the same page with my sisters. I consider myself open minded, and progressive, and have thought long and hard about why this whole thing has rubbed me the wrong way.
There are two reasons I can't get behind my sister's on this one...
Without getting into too many details, as we like to keep what we do in the Temple sacred... any woman who has been through the Temple, knows where and how women hold the priesthood.
and secondly,
The LDS Church is NOT a religious democracy. It is a fundamental aspect of the faith to believe in a Prophet, seer, and revelator. While I do believe we can approach our Heavenly Father and our Church leaders with questions and concerns, we do not demand, petition, or push our own way of ideas to make change when it comes to doctrine or the Prophet's revelation.
Maybe someday when the time is right, the Lord's timing, there will be the power of the priesthood for women in the same way men hold it. Or maybe it is something for us to practice more fully in the after life. I don't know? I don't have the answers. But I do know that when it comes to the LDS Church, there is a fine line between culture and doctrine. Until then, I believe there is nothing stronger than a sincere prayer to my Heavenly Father, and don't feel like I am missing out on any kind of blessings because I don't hold the priesthood in the same capacity as men do at Church. What matters to me is knowing that man and woman, though different, are equals before the Lord.
While I may not agree with the way Kate Kelly has handled herself, no member likes to see another excommunicated. I truly hope she can find solace. I fully understand how difficult it can be to cope with a religion that has been such a huge part of your life while having questions with fundamental values of that faith. It is a feeling that can truly be the weight of the world. From experience, I recommend prayer. So much prayer. Focus on your relationship with God, first and foremost.