my little flower child

sometimes i have these funny moments in life... where i realize that something i'm seeing or doing or experiencing is something that i have pictured before in my mind.
i had just such a moment recently, on a pretty afternoon last week as i watched my growing little maddalena romp around outside in the sunshine among flowers and kitty cats, letting her sweet spirit run free. gosh, i absolutely love getting to witness her enjoyment of life at almost two years old! it's just beautiful. and so, as i took in her glistening bouncy curls, her delightful frolic, her bare baby feet, and even the colors in her dress, i realized that all of these things were exactly how i'd envisioned maddalena as a little girl before she was even born. she's totally my dream girl, that one! God sure doesn't make mistakes. and thaaank goodness.
i really loved being pregnant. and i loooved having a newborn. and i've pretty much thought that every age to follow has been my favorite. and each stage definitely has it's fair share of challenges, that's for sure... but i still just keep finding myself more ridiculously in love with her every single day, and it's just crazy and out of control at this point. i'm a constant puddle of mush. but laughing mush, because she makes me laugh so much. and singing, dancing mush, because we do a lot of that, too.
and i know it will be so much fun one day when we add in more babes and grow our little circus here, but right now? i sure am loving getting to soak in every single tiny drop of maddalena rose. all the many, many drops. even the drops that are a little bigger and more passionate and oh, just slightly more stubborn. i love those drops, too. ;) steven would probably say she get those drops from her mama, and her mama's mama would probably agree, so i really just have to respect those drops, now don't i?
actually, i'm really starting to think the more frustrating days and moments are pretty much there to keep you from turning into the biggest and most annoying cheesy cheeseball on the whole planet. haha. obviously its effect is no match for me because i love cheese, and i eat cheese, and i am cheese.
now! if only i could harness those unknown premonitions and turn 'em into something productive, huh... ;) (i am being reminded of

daphne moon on fraser when she says "i'm a bit psychic!" and they're just like suuuure. fraser? anyone? anyone? nope? just me? oh, and my parents? k, just checking.)