A reflection of recognition
You never really know when the flood of recognition is going to sweep through your entire being,
rushing you from a limited understanding into the infinite experience of illumination.
The sudden awakening, the unravelling of understanding, can be so sly and sneaky,
you won’t know what hit you, but you know it was something big. Massive. Infinite. Boundless.
You’re submerged in the unfolding. Drowning in it-propelled forward into a new state of knowing.
I had one of these moments last week, standing in the ocean at Bronte, belly deep in the glistening waves,
watching my partner duck and dive through one of the most delicious manifestations of the Divine.
And then I saw her – this beautiful Goddess, slinking into the ocean, melting into the waves.
She was glowing, like the sun itself was dripping out through every pore of her effervescent skin.
I couldn’t peel my eyes away from her. I was mesmerized. Trapped by the magnificence of her full belly,
ripe, ready to offer up the little baby she’d so lovingly grown. I must have stood there, frozen,
watching her for a trillion seconds before I was hit and knocked back into a higher perspective:
I’m drinking in a reflection of myself!
I am most definitely pregnant, brimming, spilling over with the same fullness of life!
Like all manifestations, I too pulse with this Divine light
I can see emanating from every inch of her body.
With this knowing, I felt a pang of guilt at all the moments I’d lost perceiving anything but this beauty.
How had I not seen it in myself?
Because I chose not to. I had shifted my perception.
For the first 6 months of pregnancy, I was completely consumed by the brilliance,
the ridiculous intelligence of my body. Every day I drank in the changes, the growth, the Divine pulsing
through me, like an expensive glass of champagne. I was in awe of what my body was creating
- ahhhhh no problem, I can totally just whip up a heart and the nervous system…
build a knee joint carve out an ear canal – I’m on it… What?!
But when my body and hormones totally blew up just before Christmas,
I got sleepy and my mind pulled a sneaky, shifting my life lenses. My perception had changed.
Despite the amazing miracle that was unfolding in my body, I wasn’t fully appreciating it.
I woke up one day and realized that while I was sleeping, the baby had managed to fully take over my body,
moving forward with a force I could not slow down or control. Suddenly I felt huge. Getting out of the bed,
or up in general, was no longer effortless. Ladylike-knees-touching during seated times was no longer an option
since the pressure on my belly made me want to pass out. Bending over-forget it.
Getting in and out of the car, or walking up a hill, or 3 stairs- heart rate at 3 million.
Without me consciously realizing it, my mind had chosen a perspective that wasn’t exactly painting
the most beautiful picture, and definitly was not aligned with the highest reality.
But seeing myself reflected in the Bronte Beach Goddess jolted my less than ideal perspective right out
of my head, and I was flooded with a hit of recognition: the Divine is right here within me, as me, unfolding
into another perfectly Divine being. I am so lucky to be experiencing this manifestation.
My heart is full and my body is perfect and beautiful, a vessel for my unborn baby.
I woke up to the fact that within every aspect of the Universe lies the opportunity to
experience this Divine, the highest form of reality, if I so choose.
“Nothing perceived is independent of perception, and perception differs not from the perceiver;
therefore the universe is nothing but the perceiver,” as Abhinavangupta so simply put it.
All perceptions are on offer- take your pick. It’s you that makes you happy; it’s you that creates
bondage or liberation. Beauty or the mundane.
Your experienced Universe is nothing but
a reflection of your attitude, your perception!
Choose to see the beauty in life, in your body, your heart, your mind. Live consciously and witness the
Divine manifested in everything and everyone, within every single experience you encounter.
Be in awe. Because you can. The beauty, magnificence, the brightness, is always there,
sometimes it just needs to be revealed. Re-membered.
xxx
