He's Not Here But He Is

My actual Birthday turned out better than expected. I decided to leave work an hour early just because. I stopped and picked up a donut on the way home just because. I drank wine while eating said donut just because. Then later on that night my mom called to say that they were in the area so they stopped by for a few hours.

I was off Friday and I slept in until an alarming 10am. I can't remember the last time I did that so I think I just really needed it. I knew what I was planning to wear to dinner that night but as soon as I put it on the negative thoughts started in. I texted MJ. I look fat. He has got to be way more tired of hearing this then I am of saying it since I've only said it about a million and one times but instead of just telling me to get over it he FaceTimed me which was perfect because not only was I hating the way I looked in my dress, I wasn't sure what boots to wear. I showed him my outfit and we decided on the black boots. He told me I looked great and that's just one way he wasn't actually there but somehow still was that night.

I chose the Chocolate Peanut Butter mousse. Of course!
I chose Season's 52. I was immediately intrigued by the concept that nothing on their menu is over 475 calories. Not everyone cares about that kind of thing but I do, plus it looked like a really nice.

A lot of times we end up in really loud bars for happy hour but there was a piano player and it was really quiet so we were able to chat and catch up without yelling at each other. We all ordered flat breads which were pretty thin and crispy. Not a lot of cheese. I wasn't surprised because what can you really expect for less then 475 calories? But it was enough and it was really good. After dinner our waitress brought out this giant tower of mousse and we each got to pick one for dessert. She also took a group shot and gave me the hard copy for free.

When she came back to refill our waters she said the bill had already been taken care of. My eyes got really big. How? I look at my friends in confusion and we were all looking around the restaurant. Are we such a hot bunch that somebody decided to pay for our meal? Or is this place just so awesome that they pick up the tab on your Birthday and if so how did I not know this?

She asked me if I have a boyfriend in Germany and I almost started to cry. I don't have have a boyfriend in Germany but I have an awesome amazing sweet husband there who woke up at 4am to treat me and my friends to dinner. One of them said she felt like she was in a Lifetime movie and I totally agreed. Not the part where the woman tries to kill her best friend so she can steal her husband but the part when the friend doesn't die and makes her way back to her grieving husband where they live happily ever after.

And that's just how he is. Romantic, thoughtful and so great that 6 years later I still can't believe that I'm lucky enough to be able to call him my husband.

Tri-Tip Sandwich // Mac and Cheese // Greens
Saturday I went to my parent's house. It was the first time spending the night since they sold my childhood home. It was weird at first but if my parents live there; it's home. We went to dinner that night at a Soul Food restaurant called Felix's. I will go there for the Macaroni and Cheese alone. It takes the #1 spot for best restaurant mac and cheese but everything else was really good too. We spent the rest of our time together hanging out and watching movies.

MJ and I FaceTimed twice on Saturday and once on Sunday while I was still at my parent's house. I miss him more every day that he's gone but even when he's not here he is. I'm always thinking about him. He's still a big part of my life and we stay connected. We text, we e mail, we FaceTime. He fixes airline ticket disasters and treats me to dinner. He's not here and yet he is.

When he comes back I definitely want us to go to Season's 52 together. He's never been, I still want to try their happy hour and it will be my turn to pick up the tab.

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