Desolation vs. Anger, Sovereignty & Muses
The State Of Effy
Let's start here. Last week was intense. I had relationship therapy with my ex AND individual counseling AND a group session with the three of us (step-daughter, ex, moi).
I feel like my brain got taken out, turned this way and that, turned inside out, and then stuffed back in.
But I'm good. Really good. I mean, as good as one can be when one is melting.
Because DUDES! It's 30 degrees Celsius here. And there is no air conditioning in any of the spaces I occupy. And I am 45 which means I get to have my own personal summer often and with gusto ON TOP of the actual summer we are having.
Melty girl is melty.
But melty girl is good.
Anger is better than desolation
At least, that's what my therapist tells me. She also tells me it's healthier than what I have been feeling, which I can see because seriously - desolate feels powerless and that is a big fat hairy lie that desolation tells. I am not powerless. Ever. Full stop. But anger is a) a lot harder for me to feel okay about and b) scary for me. Desolation keeps me meek and mild. Anger is empowered and righteous and force-of-nature like.
Anger and I are making friends.
My Housemate is Awesome
I really adore her, and her son (he's 11 and a total nerd like his mom). I feel at home most of the time, and I've adjusted to the steady stream of traffic outside my bedroom window. I re-upped my World of Warcraft account so if I start to slip into 'desolate', I can distract myself with questing and shooting things. My room is *always* clean. It *always* smells good. It isn't full of allergens. It isn't dank or damp or dark or depressing.
My studio is still at the old place, but I'm working on that. It might take a while - like half a year or so - but I am planning on moving into another space. Either I'll get a bigger place or I'll rent another room in the place I'm at now. Either way, I will only ever have to come here *by choice* and never because I have to work and that will be hugely liberating.
I'm imagining a life in which everything is my choice.
Sovereign. Queen-like. Empowered. That is where I want to get to. I have it marked on a map with a big Fleur de Lys (my personal symbol), circled in red. I've got arrows in red lipstick and the words THIS WAY scrawled above them. Everything I'm doing right now points to that destination. My scepter. My cloak of power. My crown. My life.
And you? How are you? Comment below and tell me everything.
In Other News.
There are a lot of really exciting things happening in my world.
The "SOVEREIGNTY" Edition of Book Of Days starts on July 28th and runs for 12 weeks. I wasn't going to do another session this year, but my girls twisted my rubbery rubbery arm, and after the touchy feely "SELF LOVE" edition, I was craving something a little more Sheerah, a little Warrioress with a dash of High Priestess and a smidge of I am not a kitten up a tree.
You feel me?
I know you do. :)
Join me, won't you? It's $69, everything is yours to keep forever, and it will be hosted in my new NING network (which is clean and easy to navigate and secure and a dream come true.) STARTS JULY 28, 2014
This wonderful class, hosted by Kelly Hoernig, is a slice of GORGEOUS.
Join me and eight other delightful mixed media artists as we produce lessons inspired by the nine classical muses of Greece. I will be playing with Calliope and weaving poetry into my mixed media art. Tam has already produced her lesson inspired by Erato and it is completely stunning. $78 gets you nine stunning, muse inspired lessons. You can get more details by clicking here. STARTS AUGUST 27, 2014.
COMING SOON
Most exciting of all, I am CHOMPING AT THE BIT to introduce you to the eight gorgeous artists who will be joining me for RADIANT: FACES, which opens for registration with a bang on July 2. Class begins October 1st, 2014. Stay tuned!
And that's it for me for now, loves. I am so touched and dreamy-eyed over your love and support. You are what gets me up in the mornings. My work in this world couldn't happen without you. Please know how much I appreciate you and how much you mean to me.
xo
Effy
