God's Best

Two months remaining for this year but it feels like this year has been longer than the ten months that has passed.

My life has been publicized more than I expected it to be.. My private life has been nitpicked and used to define my craft. My 2014 has been one gooey ride. Sticky with sweet happenings but sometimes felt like an icky rat trap- framed and enlarged to a billboard size, displayed on EDSA- that I would rather just release myself from. One thing has surely been constant, The Lord guiding my way. It’s as if this year was already laid out in God’s customized timeline for me just as it was meant to happen. All the euphoric moments, all the times I wanted to shout in awe or rage in shaking anger, or fall down to my knees from being so afraid of what would happen next. It’s all part of God’s plan for me.

It can be so unbearably difficult to keep yourself ecstatic and seeking nourishment for your faith when all is going wrong but that’s what I’ve learnt to do. Pray when I am happy, pray when I am at my weakest, pray when things are steady, when others criticize me, when others praise me, pray. Just PRAY. Pray for thanks, for forgiveness, for help, for a healthy relationship with The Lord. I am so thankful to have strengthened my faith just a little bit more this year, these past months to be quite exact.

God has the perfect plan and timing for all of us. I know that everything I’ve done and that’s happened was all to teach me something, to test me, my faith, what I’ve learnt as a Christian. When you lift your everything to Him, He will show you the way. You just have to trust in Him.

I know this all sounds so cliche but I cannot imagine how I could be so at peace right now had I not trusted to walk by faith.

Thank you to my friends and family who have helped me gain strength in my faith. I am thankful for all my hurt, all my happiness, my everything.