how do I do this again...?

I'm an awkward person when it comes to cameras. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to smile, pose or act when in front of one. I'm self-conscious in other words, but honestly, we all are at times. If you're one of the special people that's never self-aware, you're either lying to yourself or you deserve a slow clap and an invitation to teach the rest of us of how not to give a **** about what others think. Hopefully I'll grow out of this awkward camera shy syndrome...
In other news, it's almost thanksgiving and I'm not sure what to do. This year is the second year that I won't be home for thanksgiving and I'm a little bit sad that I won't get to feast on the 20 lb turkey that they always have at home, yet again. In my nyc household this year it seems as though my fellow friends and loved ones do not share the same opinion with me about having that perfect bite of juicy turkey, with the sweet and tart cranberry chutney and the mixture of the salty and buttery gravy followed by that bite of stuffing right afterwards (yummmm)...in fact, they hate turkey. It saddens me, really. SO, this year we're doing a lobster fest. YUP. Lobster for thanksgiving. It'll be new and I'll have to wrap my head around it but I like lobster so it can't be that bad... I'll be sure to take pictures of our turkey-less thanksgiving dinner so that I can post it here later on.