Not a beauty and not a beast

I've been up really early recently. I get up around 7 every morning, I guess my subconsciousness wakes me. Been getting morning texts lately (only lately), wuiyo, morning texts, I know right *grins*. How lucky...... lol, not going to last long but yeh, you know, just enjoy the moment!
*Slap*, don't think so negatively, lol.
I normally go back to sleep, for about 2 hours more. I start my day at 9am everyday.


Mum has been going to the morning market without bringing my nephew along. She used to bring him along because he was really clingy. He's alright now, he's more independent. I now expect him to cry and look for his granny around 7.45am every day now, lol. Then, I'd say "don't cry, come in, yiyi's(aunty's) here". He would open the door and I would ask him to close the door.
Imagine him crying and closing the door, haha, so cute.
He would cry and climb onto bed with me. That's also why I sleep for another 2 hours because I'm lazy to take care of him. So, we will just sleep (: Ahhhh, he was a baby, now he's a toddler. I love that boyyyyyy, I always hug him and tell him "I love you" before I go out. He says it back too, so cute, "bye, yiyi, love you".
"Waynn, cover your eyes with your hands, yiyi's taking a picture"

He gets up, we watch Disney =,= His favourite show is Hi5, lol. My mum forbids us from watching Spongebob Squarepants or Adventure Time . She deems them unsuitable for my nephew, hence, I'm not allowed to watch, what?! Guess what was showing today? Beauty and the Beast. This fairytale though... I couldn't even remember how it goes. I watched the second half of it this morning. Wow, old as gold, I used to love the teacup so much. I used to only drink water from my little teacup when I was a kid.

I don't like how people make fun of this fairytale. Saying that Belle falls for a beast because he is rich and lives in a big castle. Uh, so sick of that mentality. The world is so sick that money has become such a big factor. Everyone believes in money, nobody believes in true love. I always believe in true love but wait... I don't think I believe in finding it myself. Is there a difference? Lol, girl doing the contradicting thing again.



Those people are too lucky. To find someone you love and he/she loves you back. There are perfect men around me, they are not perfect but they are perfect for me. Yet, not everyone can click with each other. Not everyone can keep a conversation going. Not everyone can be attracted to your silly smile. Why? We have so much in common, we are perfect together. Why won't it work?
Weird, so weird, this thing called love or attraction, so weird.




If you ever find someone so beautiful to you, don't let her/him go. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. We should appreciate what's pleasant to our eyes, not other people's eyes. You think he/she is beautiful, just hold on there, there's something going on.
There must be something, there must be something you see in him/her.




Yeh, I'm sure that you're smart and intelligent but.. If he/she is smarter than you in a way that impresses you, accept it. Don't feel pressured just because he/she is smarter. Smarter in the "common sense" way, ok, maybe in the "knowledge" way too. I guess common sense is more important, it's not going to work if both don't share common values. A smart other half nurtures you, will probably be a good father/mother to your future children. Adore him/her for his/her smartness, they will make you a better person.



Sincerity is so important to me. I can't accept people who are not sincere to me, that's it. Sincerity..., how sincere is he, how sincere is she? Does he/she love you with all of his/ her heart? This makes me sound clingy but I'm not clingy. You just gotta convince me that you love me and I'm sure that you sincerely love me. I'll let you go, you do your thing, just make sure you know that.. I am home, you come home. Nothing feels better than home, you don't leave home.




He/she is strong but definitely has another side JUST for you. I love a man who is strong and firm outside but is the biggest kid in front of you.
I don't care how bad his temper is at work, I just hope I'm his "fire extinguisher". It's sometimes annoying when he acts like a kid but you secretly adore that part of him. You just hope it never changes and you don't want to share that trait of his with others.




Compromises, commitments. People are scared of settling down and missing out "fun things" in the outside world. I'm more a domestic person, I guess I'm boring, always wanting to get married early. Friends tell me that I'll slowly change my mind. I guess it's slowly affecting me. Seeing friends' life getting screwed up with the cheating, the betrayal, the irresponsibility. The adult world is scary. Settling down doesn't mean missing out the fun things.
You just gotta be passionate about life, that's it.





I always say that I believe in true love but I guess I don't really believe in it. I don't know. I haven't met someone who sees me very specially. Even if I do, if I did, I don't think I'll ever believe it, I'm not convinced. Not convinced that someone would just treasure a person for what he/she is. That's the thing, it's shitty, I don't even know how to explain. If I ever meet that someone, the first thing I'll tell him is "please don't break me" whimp. pfft.


One day, you will find the beast that is not "beasty" to you. One day, you will find the beauty that is not all beautiful to you. Yet, he/she means the world to you.



This song gives me goosebumps.

What babbling... -end-