Oh the memories

I have currently packed up ^^^ this old life and moved all my things in boxes and waiting to unpack them and decide whether they deserve to go in a drawer or in a keepsake box or binbags. On Thursday I took the day off to sign for my IKEA delivery... aka my new beautiful desk. I am in love!
But the tidying has been somewhat emotional!

I had been feeling a little lost, a little lonely lately. My head has been up in a cloud of grey mist- confused, frustrated and disappointed. I know it's all me.
But then I went through my old letters and cards sent to me by my friends and family when I was at uni. And well, it seems I forgot all about how miserable I had been back then. Such dark times, full of upset, tears and broken hearts. It was a really horrible few years for my emotions! My parents break up, the death of my nan and the break up of my relationship... oh and all the uni work I had to do in the process!

What I am trying to say is that these lovely words from close ones really made me realise how much I have changed, how I feel like a completely different person to how I was then. And how easily I can block out all those memories of emotion. It was awful- but it made me much stronger, and although I am still not exactly the person I want to be, it proves there is hope that I soon can be.
I am so lucky to have such an amazing handful of friends and truly wonderful family. They know who they are. I am also so lucky to have a friend in Sebastian- he motivates me like no other, tells me off for not believing in myself and makes room so I can share his studio room with him! Love!

I am also truly grateful for you guys. I have such massive support from you and you really have kept me going at times! You inspire me to keep blogging and rambling on about my not so interesting life and I really owe you one! I have also been very lucky to have made some Amazing friends from doing this, and I hope to make more ---You've just got to live closer!!! Joke--but seriously it would help! Any creative Kent kids out there? I love you all, forever and always ♥